TW: Transmisogyny and dysphoria, mostly. Full disclosure: This is a version of a column that's sat in my drafts for... probably two years or so now? Certainly the last draft is dated to at least six months ago. The reason I start there is because I can't stress enough how this isn't a reactionary post; … Continue reading Behind The Curtain: An Apology and a Promise
Tag: personal
Behind the Curtain: “Bad” Mental Illness and the Danger of Visibility
Over the last six months or so, as I write this, I've dealt with a number of attempted harassment campaigns. The majority of them, admittedly, didn't go very far. I'm lucky in that respect - I don't make a good target of outrage, I'm hard to get fired since I work for myself, and I'm … Continue reading Behind the Curtain: “Bad” Mental Illness and the Danger of Visibility
“Year T.” – a poem
this poem deals with medical gatekeeping, transphobia (incl. internalized) and dysphoria, from a transmasculine perspective. it also touches on mental illness, hospitalization and relationship abuse. year one- you fumble with, stumble over the words, the letters, the lines the genderbread drawings and new permissions - "you could be a boy, if you really wanted … Continue reading “Year T.” – a poem
“you’re only human”
you will never be the monster in the mirror it's just made of glass you will never be the beast under the bedsheets the bad dreams that stay you can be more than a collection of scar tissue an unending reaction collateral damage an unburied body. it takes time to notice how you've shrugged weight … Continue reading “you’re only human”
“nothing will ever feel this bad again”
tw: suicide I wrote this a few days after my attempted overdose, after being on the wagon for 3 years. It's too personal for me to submit anywhere, so I'm putting it up here instead. by the twelfth time you’ve tried to move on, you’re sure that nothing will ever feel this bad again. … Continue reading “nothing will ever feel this bad again”
Elliott Dunstan 