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  • First Chapter Thoughts: One Hundred Years Of Solitude

    October 25th, 2022

    It’s been so long since I did one of these! I’ve been slacking on my reading this year (for, ah, fairly good reasons) but I’ve been meaning to read my magical realism classics for a while. I started House of the Spirits a while ago and promptly… put it down and forgot where it went. But this is my first go at One Hundred Years of Solitude, and… wow.

    The book, strikingly, starts with a man facing a firing squad. The rest of the book – or at least, the chapter, so we’ll see where it goes – is about his thoughts right at the end of his life. Quite literally, his life flashing before his eyes. This man, Colonel Aureliano Buendía, grew up in a small village called Macondo somewhere in the Andes; cut off from the rest of the world and connected to the idea of a wider world only through the visiting gypsies. These gypsies bring all sorts of fascinations to the village, which whip up his imaginative father’s fancy, despite their warnings otherwise.

    Obviously, I’m not fond of the word ‘gypsy’, but between this being a book in translation (it’s a Colombian novel, so originally written in Spanish) and being published in 1967, I’m willing to let it slide. I’m also willing to let it slide because the depiction of the gypsies is fascinating. The main Romani character in the first chapter, Melquíades, warns Aureliano’s father time and time again against his fantasies. The first time, Melquíades shows off an immensely powerful magnet that pulls all sorts of iron and steel towards it — and Aureliano’s father immediately buys it and tries to use it to search for gold, despite Melquíades warning him that it won’t work for that. The second time, it’s a magnifying glass that Aureliano’s father wants to repurpose as a weapon, and in a wonderful bit of characterization, after this also fails, Melquíades gives him the money back in exchange for the magnifying glass, and gives him a map. (So often, Romani characters are immediately depicted as shady and dishonest; the only comment I have is that it’s a little funny how much time the narrative spends on ‘no, no, they were super honest and super forthcoming about this’. Goes to show how deep the assumptions run.)

    Ultimately, Aureliano’s father wants to set off and explore the world, and only his wife Ursula manages to dissuade him from it — because, for one, he’s absolutely terrible at it. (He manages to, through some extremely bad navigation, convince himself that Macondo is on a peninsula with no way forward. He’s, uh, wrong.) Two, his sons need attention – so the next time the gypsies come to town, he takes them down with him, and it’s together that they discover the ‘latest’ invention; ice.

    I’ve always loved magical realism, but there’s something about reading one of the first books to establish the style to really ground what it means. ‘Dreamlike’ is correct; but also the sense of dislocation, the blurred lines between reality and fantasy, where it’d be just as easy to believe this is a fantasy world where Aureliano’s father really is discovering that the world is round and witnessing the invention of ice. The writing is gorgeous, too, and such a huge part of establishing the tone — some of this, obviously, is thanks to the translation. One day I hope I get to read it in the original Spanish, but even in English, the prose is just… so so good. And all of it’s colored with a bit of darkness, the knowledge that Aureliano dies by firing squad; and we don’t know why.

    I’m excited to read the rest – keep your eyes peeled for my full review! This went up 24 hours early for my Patreon supporters.

  • Ghosts in Quicksilver – 3.1 – Fractured Shadows

    August 8th, 2022
    TWs: transphobia (mild, unspoken, complicated), obsession/stalkerishness (INTENSE), paranoid delusions/psychosis, imprisonment

    A long time ago, in a land that had not yet lost its magic or its gods, there was a witch who lived in the woods; this might be a story you know, I never really know with you, but her house wasn’t made of candy, because that’s a horrible idea, and just asking for ants. I did have an ant problem, but that’s unavoidable in woodlands, and – and that’s not the point.

    You’re getting sidetracked.

    Right. Forest, house, not candy. Whether or not she was a witch is also, strictly speaking, up to interpretation. There are two kinds of women in fairytales, really; maidens and crones. Mothers are supposed to be in there, too, but they become irrelevant, part of the background. And I’m no maiden. So crone it is. The maidens – well, they came later, after the witch had built her palace far away from every other living soul, a work of art for her eyes alone. There were two of them; an elder and a younger sister, lost and searching in the woods, abandoned by their parents.

    Er, but more about them later.

    Coward.

    No, not cowardice, just – you know, maybe you should do this part. No, that’s a bad idea. Shit, it’s bad enough that I ended up talking to myself. Although I think anybody would.

    [ᚉᚐᚖᚃᚓ]

    Less long ago, after the world forgets most of its gods, leaves them forgotten but not faded in textbooks and shrines and literary memory and the love-languages of songs and symbols – that, that is when we meet you. We do not know your face, not right away. We know you, instead, by the signs. The steadiness of your gaze. The caution in your stance. The way your fear and your curiosity do not so much do war with each other but egg each other on; it is because you fear me that you wish to know more. From the first moment you lay your eyes on us, you know that we are a puzzle, and you know that you want to solve it.

    We have no answers for you, save the one you do not want to – should not – hear. We will end up telling you anyway. We will be careless, reckless, hope that honesty will inspire kindness (perhaps pity) from you. We never should have done it. And in our carelessness, you heard your old name and now – now – now – yes, it’s true, we will have to confess to the blood on our hands and the chains on our wrists. Perhaps this was inevitable. Perhaps fate has spoken. Perhaps this is part of our punishment.

    But fate also shows me recognition in your eyes. And fate winds me ever closer to you – fate, or obsession, or love.

    I asked you – ask you – asked you – “what do you see” and you tell me about broken glass and kaleidoscopes. I take you at your word, and I suppose you could be lying, but I also suppose there’s no reason for you to. We could lie to each other. But I know, and I think you know, that instead we are more truthful to each other than we are with any other – mortal or immortal, human or sidhe, man or woman.

    [ᚉᚐᚆᚔᚏ]

    She is still screaming.

    It never stops. It never stops. She can taste blood in her mouth – a hunter’s kill, a blood moon, a price for vengeance. And yet.

    And yet.

    She can smell the changeling on the wind. Old scent. Gone into the Medium where she cannot (dare not) follow. But in time – in time the changeling will re-emerge. A proving ground. A chance.

    Call her human.

    I dare you.

    [ᚉᚐᚖᚃᚓ]

    I can see you through the trees. I don’t know if you’ll believe me, if I tell you that I didn’t mean to bring you here. That this was the last thing I wanted. Because now that you’re here, there’s no hiding it from you, is there?

    But you’re not the only one here.

    I can hear her. Calling your name. Calling for help. Innocent in her stupidity.

    I try not to care. I try. I do. But-

    [ᚃᚕᚙᚏᚐ]

    THEY WILL NEVER SEE YOU.

    [ᚉᚐᚖᚃᚓ]

    My love. My soulmate. Yes. This is the proof. I could have killed you. I could have. I would have-

    I couldn’t.

    My soul itself will not allow it. Do you see it? That I will tear myself apart to prove myself to you? That I would kill a hundred, a thousand men to prove that this is truth? The signs are all there. Read the stars or the entrails, the fortunes written in cards or bones or entrails – they will all say the same thing.

    Only allow me to show you. The patterns alone will redeem me. What are a few lives to the cruelty of decades and centuries alone-?

    [ᚂᚑᚙᚂᚐᚅ]

    No, I think – I think I should care.

    I mean, I don’t. They weren’t very helpful. Or very nice.

    [ᚃᚕᚙᚏᚐ]

    SHE WILL NEVER SEE YOU.

    [ᚉᚐᚖᚃᚓ]

    Time reveals all secrets.

    So tell me, Jamal – am I the witch in the woods, or the princess in the tower? Which story would you like to hear? Which would you like to tell? Truth is malleable; truth is everywhere. And I, for one, would love to know how it ends.

    [&&&]

              So, here’s the thing about me and fairy tales. Foster parents? Not super great about reading them to children they’re mostly taking on as a charity project. Sure, not all of them were that bad. Some tried. But a lot of the kind ones were the later ones, and by then, I was already hard enough to work with that I don’t blame ‘em for not reading me cutesy bedtime stories. I never thought it was a problem before. If I really needed to know, I could just ask Jo if she’d read anything about whatever was coming up. That’d helped me so far with all of this faerie shit.

              But now I was really starting to wish I’d had a slightly more normal childhood. I mean, what else is new? Pros: I knew how to pick locks and that adults were long on promises and short on follow-through. Cons: I had no fucking idea where I was. Neverland? Narnia? Heaven? No, the little I did know about Christianity meant I definitely wasn’t getting anywhere near there.

              “You’re in the Medium,” Jo offered with a sigh after watching me look around for a moment. “Er, I think.”

              “Doesn’t look anything like it did last time.”

              “That’s where I’m a bit lost, too. I think this is one of the sub-worlds.”

              “Sub-worlds. I’m starting to think you guys are just making this shit up as you go along.”

              “You,” Jo retorted, voice more acid than I’d expected, “are the one who threw herself in front of a sword. You have no ground to talk about ‘making shit up as she goes along’. What were you thinking?”

              I tried not to be irritated. I did. It wasn’t like I’d done it because I was aching to know what a sword in the stomach felt like. In fact…

              Before answering Jo, I prodded at my stomach. I hadn’t actually gotten stabbed – maybe. Then I turned around. “I pushed someone out of the way. That’s diff—”

              Oh.

              Somewhere in my brain, I hadn’t quite put together what it meant that I was in the Medium and that Jo was with me. To be fair, I’d been dealing with a lot all of five minutes ago, or however much time had actually passed. But it was more than that. I’d forgotten just how much Jo had faded. It had happened so slowly. Piece by piece. Eyes that didn’t quite sparkle the same way. A dress that had looked fine on a twelve-year-old, a bit dated on thirteen, immature on fourteen –

              And something else was different, too.

              Jo stood up, feet bracing on – actually touching – the grass, not hovering a few inches above or slipping right through. Her long hair was tied back into a loose ponytail, instead of around her head in a halo of flyaway curls. Her skin was brown, actually brown, instead of a memory of it lost in shades of grey. No dress. A button-up shirt and a black vest, which kind of reminded me of what both Avery and Isaiah wore, a cross between both of them. It wasn’t the flat chest that tipped me off; she’d been twelve when she died, for chrissakes, and besides, it wasn’t like I was flaunting a hell of a lot in the tits department anyway.

              It was how much happier he looked. Happy, and nervous, and chewing on his lip as he waited for me to say something.

              I bit back my first response. My second, too. This is what you’ve been avoiding fucking telling me? And the obvious, instinctual reaction that I couldn’t see the point given that Jo was a ghost – especially since by that logic, you could talk yourself out of anything, really.

              “So, uh,” I managed to say, before I looked like even more of an idiot. “Is this a butch lesbian thing or–?”

              “Definitely not a lesbian. That’s your thing.” Jo dug the tip of his boot into the ground. “I didn’t even know ghosts could, uh, change how we looked. Isaiah told me.”

              “Isaiah helped you with a lot, huh?” I tried to keep the jealousy out of my voice.

              “Yeah. Yeah, I – turns out I’m a guy. Would have liked to have put that together a little sooner, but…” Jo shrugged. I could see him kind of sinking, though. There was some reaction, some response I wasn’t giving. “It’s kind of awkward timing. I kept meaning to tell you, but.”

              “I kept throwing myself into trouble?”

              “Pretty much!”

              I’d had trans friends before. I had trans friends. Jesus, the girl I was pretty sure I was falling for was trans. Why was I so…

              …angry?

              It wasn’t at Jo. I knew at least that much was true.

              “I wish you’d told me anyway,” I said, then managed to smile. “You look good, though.”

              “You think so?” There it was. He lit up, just a bit, and I realized with a suppressed snort that there were probably a few reasons Jo had been spending so much time with Isaiah.

              And right on cue.

              “I hate to break up this tender little moment,” came the snarl from the treeline, “but you aren’t supposed to be here.”

              I bit down on the inside of my cheek so I didn’t say something I’d regret, and before I even turned to look at her, Kiera had hopped down from whatever branch she’d been skulking on, doing her usual skeletal Loom over the two of us. It wasn’t as successful as usual over Jo, because Jo was easily the same height as Kiera now. That and –

              “I suppose you’re the ghost,” Kiera said with a wrinkle of her nose.

              “Jo. Nice to meet you,” Jo replied with a smile so sharp it could have cut through steel.

              “You look different than I expected.”

              “I think you expected a girl.”

              “I expected someone shorter. Whatever you dress up as is besides the point.”

              I felt the back of my neck prickle with heat, fist curling by my side – but Jo grabbed my shoulders before I could do anything stupid. “Funnily enough, I don’t think that’s what she meant,” he said with a small laugh.

              I was barely listening. I felt so stupid, but I’d forgotten how much I missed Jo. I put one of my hands up over to he—his. It’d take me a bit, but he felt the same.

              “Very cute. Now if the two of you could get about leaving.”

              I squinted at Kiera. She looked… well, surprisingly on edge. “You’re here.”

              “Usually your observations aren’t quite so obvious. Yes, amazing. Right in front of—”

              “What happened?”

              Kiera closed her mouth, seething for some reason I couldn’t understand. “You’re in the Medium. You destabilized. I assume the changeling showed you how to get back out.”

              “And you’re here because?”

              “I can navigate the Medium as I—” She sighed, something rankling at her. “I can—” Again, she cut her sentence off. “I just am. Faeries can navigate the Medium as they choose.”

              Right. She was a faerie, which meant the Medium was easy enough to navigate. What was that? I thought anyway. And immediately following it up – She didn’t follow me in last time. She couldn’t find Jaylie. Why’s she here now?

              I didn’t have any particular reason to stick around, though. Especially given that she’d just come way too close to skewering me. So I shook out my hands and tried to do what Jaylie had mentioned, about visualizing an exit.

              Nothing happened.

              I closed my eyes, and tried to think of the Civic Hospital doors. Opening and closing, with the little girl trapped between them –

              Nothing. Just the blackness behind my eyes, stretching out like it did in the world-as-I-knew-it.

              My heart began to pound against my ribs. I opened my eyes again. Kiera didn’t look smug, exactly. There was a glitter in her eyes I didn’t like – but still the same edginess as well.

              “Why can’t I leave?”

              Kiera didn’t say a word.

              I turned to speak to Jo – and he was gone. “Jo. Jo—”

              “He thought you’d be right behind him, I imagine,” Kiera said in an almost bored voice, leaning back against a tree and inspecting her fingernails. “For what it’s worth, he can get back in no problem. It just might take longer than usual.”

              “Longer? You—” The angry headrush came back, and this time I didn’t have anybody to stop me. I threw myself at Kiera, my fists curling in the lapels of her coat as I shoved her back against the tree. She didn’t even try to stop me, her face a nearly-blank mask of… god, something. Sadness, almost? But the dull sadness I was so used to on myself. Resignation, really. The face you get when you’re tired right down to the center of everything you are. “What did you do?”

              “I didn’t do anything,” she said after a moment. “You did. You put yourself in the way.”

              “Oh, so it’s my fault now?”

              “Yes.”

              “Jesus christ, Kiera—”

              “You destabilized, and so did I. And it dragged both of us back to the Medium. And when I’m in the Medium, I end up here.”

              “And where is here, exactly? If it’s not the Medium?”

              She laughed at that, finally breaking the dull shell she’d had on. “Oh, it’s the Medium alright. A special little spot of it made just for me. I really should have guessed where the bitch was hiding, you know. The changeling? Whether she knows it or not, this is the same thing.”

              “The same thing. So you should be able to leave.”

              “Oh, no.” Kiera yanked my hands away from her lapel. She was, I realized, in the state that I only sometimes saw her; gaunt and white-faced, eyes glinting with internal, unnatural light, teeth edged with shark-points, her proportions ever so slightly off. I wondered if that meant this was her true form, and the other was a mask. “One small difference, Jamal, sweetheart. I didn’t make it. And I don’t own it.”

              Made just for me.

              It slowly started to dawn on me that it might not just have been a coincidence that Kiera hadn’t been around any other faeries.

              “Where are we, Kiera?” I asked, starting – finally – to get scared.

              “Prison, dear. This is prison. Prison with a lovely blue sky and birches and spruce needles, and even a few very pretty frolicking geese, but prison regardless, with only one prisoner.” Kiera’s cheerless smile dropped. “You should have let me run the bitch through.”

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  • Chapter 19: Fox and Wolf

    June 1st, 2022
    CW: paranoia, racism/anti-miscegenation

    Two representatives from every family shall sit in the Parliamentary Assembly, one the elder and one the younger, between the ages of twenty-one and seventy, and in this way shall the voice of each of our illustrious families be heard.

    Elessan Law Code

    I think it’s ridiculous to pretend that the Garrows have any status in Parliament. If you can’t so much as provide two adult representatives for Parliament, I see no reason to take you seriously. Come back when you’ve got more than two sons barely out of diapers.

    Albert zul zier Gehrichten Johnsohn Janssen, current elder Janssen representative

    An interesting critique, if it didn’t become so difficult to ascertain your status as an ‘adult’ representative every time you opened your mouth.

    Achiel zier Schwarzerde Kieransohn Vandemeer, current junior Vandemeer representative, in response to the above.

    Once this case was over, Jacob swore, he was going to go to one of his clubs and drink himself stupid with a cute boy on his lap. He had earned it. He wasn’t looking forward to the rest of the day. The entire squad was scattered across the city with rank-and-file squads and military police under their command, setting up observation spots on the taller buildings in Den Elessa and sectioning off some of the public buildings for “construction”. If they’d had even the slightest idea where to look, it would have helped. And he was stuck being the central contact point, when he would have much rather been at one of the stakeout points — but he was heading up the case, so at the Centrum he stayed.

    He splashed some water on his face, groaning. At least he’d slept a little better last night.

    Red Team, Blue Team, Green Team, White Team. He’d even gotten to collaborate with the other Akelei squads and one from Candlewick, although they weren’t his favourites. Fuckin’ meffs, mostly, but manpower was manpower. The only person he’d kept here with him was Wolfie, because he needed a Smoke on hand for sending and communication in case radios went down.

    Jacob let himself out of the bathroom, still feeling a little like he’d rather lie down on a railroad track. At least Rook and Djaneki were well out of it. Rook was a good person to have in your corner for the direct stuff, but he’d never taken well to the watching and waiting style, especially not when they were trying to keep it out of the public eye. To tell the truth, Jacob didn’t enjoy it either; he’d probably have traded for the serial killer in a second if he wasn’t likely to be a direct liability. He stuck to Advolk cases for a reason. At least he’d eaten now. Breakfast, at that.

    Today was going to be long.

    He sighed, heading for the stairs… then paused. He’d thought — nah. Probably nothing.

    Nothing is nothing. Not right now.

    He was on the first floor of the Centrum. Plenty of people went in and out of the main lobby; just like with the Palace, they had their own cleaners and servants, too. Support staff, they were called — the same non-rank rank as the librarians and nurses. Except the person dutifully cleaning the glass on the administrative offices’ doors was a little too familiar.

    Jacob played at nonchalance, going up the stairs and glancing out of the corner of his eye as he ascended. He could be wrong; it wouldn’t be the first time. He had an alright memory for faces once he’d seen them a few times, but sometimes the first couple meetings really threw him. Plus, she was dressed differently, and he’d interviewed a lot of people yesterday. But once he got to the landing of the first floor and got an angle on her face, it was unmistakable. It was Mary-Ann Daniels, the maid from the Palace and Coben’s would-be lover.

    He frowned, leaning on the banister and watching her. The Palace and the Centrum didn’t share staff. You didn’t have to be military to be support staff, no, and there was nothing stopping you from working at both, except that neither were part-time positions. The girl must have been dead on her feet — and both positions paid plenty, he knew that for a fact, so why?

    He got at least part of an answer when Wolfie came through the front doors, clearly straight from the mess hall, holding two coffees, and offered one to her with a grin.

    Jacob pressed a hand to his forehead, suddenly tempted to throw Wolfie through a window. This wasn’t the first time. Wolfie was engaged to Ive, sure, but it was arranged; they got along fine, but Wolfie’s eyes… wandered. Jacob wouldn’t have minded if he’d been a little more discreet about it. Or a little more discerning. But that was what you got with straight men, apparently. Queers knew how to keep their show out of the workplace.

    And then there was, well. Mary-Ann was seventeen. Which — Jacob sighed. He’d thought Wolfie was better than that, but to be fair, it didn’t look like anything more than technically-harmless flirtation.

    But then there was the way she’d talked about Coben. And the fact that she was here.

    Ignoring coincidences was fine, for other people.

    Jacob waited until Wolfie had headed up the stairs towards the office, gave him a casual-looking wave, then headed down the stairs, keeping his peripheral vision on Mary-Ann. She hadn’t noticed him, and he knew how to keep his shoulders relaxed and his gaze unfocused so he looked just like the rest of the people around him, the speed he was moving at almost unnoticeable because of how casual he seemed. He had long legs, too, so he looked like he was moving slowly; you picked up on tricks like this over time. Dasta had actually taught him this one—

    —and damn it, he was tired of thinking of Dasta.

    Mary-Ann sipped at her coffee, then, almost imperceptibly, her eyes flickered up towards him. She discreetly began to wander down the hallway, leaving her cleaning supplies behind her.

    Gotcha.

    He sped up a little more, and closed his fingers around her upper arm before she could break into a run. He could see it in the way she’d tensed up, one foot starting to rise up off the ground. “Miss Daniels,” he murmured to her in a low voice.

    “Lieutenant,” she seethed from between gritted teeth.

    He half-dragged her along until he found one of the storage units near the quartermaster’s booth, and shoved her inside, closing the door behind him. To Mary-Ann’s credit, he noted, she hadn’t spilled a drop of her coffee, open lid and all. She had excellent balance. Excellent balance, excellent reflexes, and excellent observational skills — which didn’t quite track with the innocent, sweet maid routine, but did track with the clever mind she hadn’t been able to hide.

    She huffed at him, putting the coffee cup down on one of the metal shelves inside the storage closet, between a roll of paper towels and a spare bucket. It was cramped, but big enough that she had room to move about, at least. Jacob was just glad he was between her and the door — he had the feeling that she would have made a break for it otherwise. “What do you want?”

    He crossed his arms. “I thought you worked for the Palace.”

    “I do.”

    “This ain’t the Palace. Unless you’re lost.”

    “Is there a law against having two jobs?” she shot back, voice sugary-sweet. She even looked different; the Palace servant uniform had been soft, feminine, with skirt and apron, whereas the support staff uniform was denim overalls over a workman’s shirt, designed for invisibility just as much as utility. It had been the ribbon that had caught his eye, he realized; the same bright-blue lapis ribbon wound into her black curls. Garrow blue.

    “No, but I am wonderin’ when it is you sleep.”

    She rolled her eyes, hackles lowering slightly. “So you’re just showing your concern. How noble. For your information, I enjoy having the extra money around. It means I have more to send back to my mother.”

    “Etamara?”

    “Again with the assumptions.”

    “Am I wrong?”

    She hesitated, then glared at him. “It’s none of your business.” Which meant he wasn’t, she was just annoyed about it. He did his best not to laugh.

    “And I’m sure Lieutenant Vandemeer’s got nought to do with it.”

    Mary-Ann frowned at him at that one. “He’s nice to me.”

    “You told me about Coben—”

    “And I thought I was perfectly clear that I’m friends with him and nothing more. If nothing else, perhaps having a suitor will shake off his idiocy a little.”

    Idiocy? God, he almost liked this girl. Scratch that, he did. He just wondered if she was bold enough to say that to Coben’s face, although with this kind of attitude, he had the feeling she was, had already done so, and that it was exactly why Coben was after her. He leaned against the wall. “Firstly, if you think competition’ll scare off a man who knows the feeling’s mutual, you need a touch more education on how men work.”

    “I know perfectly well how men work. Better than you might think, unless you think I’m blind to why you dragged me in here.” And she smirked.

    …Brat.

    Jacob rubbed the bridge of his nose, in part to hide his entertained grin. Could be worse, he reminded himself. Just think how badly any of the other men would deal with this. Manor boys like Wolfie were probably eating out of her hand. He’d been half-raised by Sigaro tinkers, Vijaroki gun-runners and Shufennese prostitutes. “Secondly, Vandemeer’s engaged and the Judge’s godson, so your standards either need lowerin’ or you’re a brave, brave little lady.”

    “Call me little lady again and I’ll bite you.”

    “Cute, but you’re barking up the wrong tree. You’re not my type, and I don’t fuck teenagers.”

    “What is your type?”

    “Men, mostly.”

    That shut her up. Even if it wasn’t really true; he liked men and women, but every now and again it worked in his favour to bend the truth the other way round. Usually it was pretending to be straight that got him out of trouble. Besides, it was worth it for the embarrassed flush on Mary-Ann’s face. A support-staff teenager wasn’t likely to get him in any more trouble than any of his actual lovers could, so he wasn’t worried.

    “So,” he said after a moment. “Wanna tell me what you’re actually up to? ‘Cause I figure W- Vandemeer’s under the impression you’re a wee bitolder than you are.”

    “Twenty,” she mumbled.

    Aha. So he could gain some of his respect for Wolfie back. “Lyin’ about your age like that’s dangerous.”

    “We’re not—” She sighed. “He helped me get the job here because I was struggling to make rent. I messed up my math.”

    “Really? You didn’t meet here?”

    “No, at the Palace. He was visiting one of his cousins.”

    That was right, there were Vandemeer kids at the Palace too. Although they were certainly more free to leave than the others; Garrow and the Vandemeer boys were practically blood-brothers. Jacob was starting to feel bad for jumping to conclusions. God. He really was on edge.

    “Are you done interrogating me?” she asked with a soft sigh. “Because I will get in trouble with my boss if I leave my cleaning supplies out in the open like that.”

    Jacob reached forward, checking the temperature of her coffee cup, then groaned. “Yeah. Sorry, love. I’m jumping at shadows. Lemme buy you lunch sometime, make up for it?”

    “I thought you were gay.”

    “What, so I can’t be friendly?”

    Mary-Ann did laugh at that. “Oh, fine. Another time. If I decide not to hold your paranoia against you.” She picked up her coffee, and Jacob opened up the door for her —

    —and so smoothly it really did look like an accident, knocked one of her knees out from under her. Not by much. He was tall, he was lanky, he was clumsy. Nobody could hold it against him.

    “Damn it, sorry—”

    She laughed it off. “I’m fine.” Other people would have gone flying, maybe steadying themself on the doorjamb, or the opposite wall; it would have at least taken them a few steps. She’d adjusted almost immediately. And the coffee that should have ended up all over her front still hadn’t spilled a drop. “Have a good day, Lieutenant.” There was a slight note of stress to her voice.

    Jacob watched her leave, tapping his fingers on the doorjamb and chewing on the inside of his cheek. He wasn’t just being paranoid. Not entirely. This whole thing still might be entirely innocent… But nobody, nobody got that good without being trained. He’d checked the coffee because he didn’t want her hurt, just in case, but he hadn’t expected that level of poise. It—

    —well, it reminded him of the Black Guard. That was what unnerved him so much. But she was too young. She could pass herself off for twenty, but she couldn’t be older than that. She would’ve been a toddler when the Black Guard was formed, seven or eight at most during the massacre.

    Who the hell was she?

    He was startled out of his thoughts by the crackle of the radio at his hip. “Red Team in position, over.”

    He grabbed the radio, heading up the stairs and into the NatSec office before he responded. “Control, I hear you. Everything normal?”

    “So far,” Martinadocht sighed. Her team was over in the warehouse district, watching the river docks from one of the few watchtowers still standing. “Got some people doing the door-to-door, coda two. Over.”

    Coda two meant they were asking casually if anybody had seen anything odd or magical; it was just an excuse to see if any of the warehouses or the few residences didn’t respond, acted shifty or had anything out of place. The problem with the radios was that even the secured channels were only secure to a degree; they had to operate under the assumption that even people with access to the NatSec channels could be dangers, so they kept communications limited and coded. Martinadocht in particular wasn’t fond of it, but she’d been born and raised in Den Elessa; she was used to telephones, which were slightly less frustrating.

    Jacob kept his chuckle to himself. “Keep me posted. You might be there a while, love.”

    “Don’t call me love.” Pause. “Over.”

    “Over and out.” Then he rolled his eyes and returned his attention to Wolfie, who was sorting through his plants on one of the desks. At least he was on top of things. “You fully stocked?”

    “Mostly. Don’t ask me for more’n a few Grand Arcanum spells, though. This stuff doesn’t — well, you know what I mean.”

    “Were you going to say grow on trees?”

    “…Well, plenty of it doesn’t,” Wolfie defended. “I was waiting for you, but I can cast something for some recon while everybody’s still getting set up.”

    That was probably a good idea, especially with the bloodstone. Jacob sat at the desk next to Wolfie, already half-set up; the one on his other side was cleared off for Sylvia. He didn’t know Smokework spells off the top of his head, although like anybody who worked with thaums, you picked up on some of them after a while. “You can’t cast remembrancy for other people, huh?”

    “Nah. I mean, I’m sure Rook has some sort of nonsense he pulls out of his ass, but I can’t.”

    “Rook’s busy,” came the response from Sylvia’s office as she opened the door. “And unfortunately, no, even he can’t do that. You can walk them through it, but we don’t have anybody on hand.”

    …Damn it. He should have dragged Mary-Ann up here. Well, at least he knew how to find her. Vague suspicions weren’t enough to hold someone, though, and the military was trying to fix relations with the Kanet’, not make them worse.

    “What I can do,” Wolfie said instead, “is cast Eight of Gems. Narrow things down a bit.”

    “Eight of Gems. Which one’s that again?”

    “Yes or no questions about a person or place. Problem is it gets really picky about the yes/no thing, so you gotta pick the questions carefully.”

    Sylvia nodded carefully at that. “Lambert, what were the standouts from the Palace?”

    “Coben’s got himself a girl.”

    Sylvia’s eyebrows nearly flew off her face at that. “Does… anyone know?”

    “Don’t think so. She seems pretty discreet abou’ it.”

    Wolfie shook his head. “Nah, it’s pretty low-key. I think a few other maids know and that’s it—”

    Jacob stared at him. Wolfie lifted his head and blinked back at Jacob. “What?”

    “What do you mean, what?”

    Then Wolfie snorted, grinning. “Oh, you thought I didn’t know. Gimme a little credit.” He kept sorting through his plants. “She’s Kanetan, so it’s not really destined for success.”

    “Coben Garrow,” Sylvia said, a little incredulously. “Well, that’s a motive.”

    “Is it?”

    “Think about how many manor families are trying to marry off their daughters to him,” Sylvia sighed. “If they’re not trying to take him out of the picture entirely before he sits in on his first session of Parliament, or before the vote for Judge.”

    “They can’t possibly believe the Judge would actually let—” Then Jacob paused and groaned. “They might. Whether or not it’s true.”

    “If all else fails,” Sylvia said darkly, “bet on the racism of established nobility. Er, with some exceptions,” she added somewhat hastily, but Wolfie just snickered.

    “No, no, it’s a safe bet if you’ve met my great-aunt.” Wolfie bound together a bundle of plants, some dried, some fresher; Jacob thought he saw the distinct red of fly agaric in there, and he was tying it with the frond of one of the giant ferns, but beyond that he didn’t recognize any of them by sight.

    “Masks on?” he asked to be sure.

    “That depends on how much you want to be Alice in Wonderland,” Wolfie shot back with a smirk, grabbing his from the back of his chair. Sylvia just rolled her eyes, picking one up from the other desk for herself and tossing another to Jacob. Every type of magic had its inherent risks, but Smokework was like Bloodwork in that some of them were inherent to the performing of it; not every plant was good for you. Some were only toxic if you ate them, and therefore only the physicians and apothecaries had to worry — others were poison to touch, which was why Wolfie had flexible leather gloves pulled over his hands, and others still carried their poison even in the smoke they made when they burned, which meant Smokes always had masks, and anybody working with them usually did, too. Wolfie’s was custom-made, the front shaped into a canine snout and leather detailed with fangs just above where it gave way to hardened rubber; the ones he and Sylvia had were just standard-issue gas-masks.

    Before he pulled the mask on, Jacob pulled out a pen and paper. They could talk through the masks, but it was a lot of work and frankly, they couldn’t afford mistakes. Then he pulled the mask over his face, and handed Wolfie the list of questions, Sylvia peering at them over Wolfie’s shoulder. He waited nervously to see what Sylvia’s response was, but she nodded, giving him a thumbs up.

    Wolfie opened his box of matches – he always insisted on using matches instead of a lighter, god knew why, but every thaum had their quirks — and lit the wick.

    Immediately, the light in the room changed. Jacob had learned the hard way that not everybody could see this; for some people they got a sense of it, while others just saw what was in front of them. It was part of his own personal curse, he supposed. He couldn’t participate in the magic thaums performed, and instead he got a unique, bird’s eye view of it. The smoke from the small flame curled and coiled upwards, turning into different hues in the otherwise-still air — red and white, yellow, deep-green.

    Wolfie took a deep breath, the sound magnified by his mask. He looked like something out of a long-distant past with his hood pulled up around the sides of the mask, mismatched eyes only slightly visible behind the goggles — one a bright blue and the other hazel. Then he closed his eyes, and Jacob could hear him mouthing the question, forming it in his head as his fingers moved through the smoke. The first one on the list, and the one they needed an answer to first. Is Coben Heathsohn Garrow still alive?

    On the desk in front of Wolfie was a stone; white on one side, black on the other. Another thing that Jacob could see, but others couldn’t, was that the smoke responded to the question; it dove down towards the stone, coiling around it almost curiously. Others, apparently, only saw the stone move.

    The smoke flipped the stone, and flipped it again, and one more time. It always took a few times. Then it drew back, and Wolfie opened his eyes — and his shoulders fell in obvious relief.

    White.

    Coben was alive.

    That was one less thing to be worried about. Thank fucking god. Coben had only turned twenty-one a month or so ago; in another month, when Parliament reconvened, he would be able to attend as the first new official Garrow representative in — ridder, over forty years. That was what had occurred to him while talking to the Judge. It hadn’t clicked before because like most people, he thought of Heath himself as a Garrow representative, but as the Judge, he wasn’t actually officially a Garrow representative in Parliament. So if Coben happened to suffer an accident before showing up in the assembly-house, it’d be another eleven years before Rue was old enough.

    Don’t get too excited yet. He’s alive now. That doesn’t mean he’ll be alive later.

    The next question was important, too. “Is Coben Garrow within the City of Den Elessa’s borders?” He’d had to think that one through. If he’d just written Den Elessa, like he was tempted to, the spell would likely search the whole county, which included a whole lot of space beyond the city itself. Specificity was good.

    Another yes.

    Jacob traded a glance with Sylvia, and even through the goggles of the gasmask, he could sense her equal relief.

    Next question. “Is Coben Garrow currently being held by force and/or restrained?”

    Yes.

    Hell. There went any lingering hope of Coben being holed up in a brothel or just running away from responsibility.

    “Is Coben Garrow currently injured?”

    No.

    …Huh.

    “Is Coben Garrow within any of the following estates: Den Riviere, Den Bergen, Den Pont, Den Miller, Den Haber, Den Janssen?” The manor families they knew had lingering grudges against Garrow.

    No.

    “Is Coben Garrow within the estate of Den Forrath?”

    Jacob braced himself for that one. That one would be bad beyond all imagining—

    No.

    The smoke was starting to fade, too. Wolfie put another match to it —

    Jacob frowned. Something was bothering him.

    Coben Garrow had vanished from the Palace late at night. Which, sure. That made sense for a kidnapping. No forced entry, no sign of disturbance, and they’d been operating under the idea that it was someone who was excellent at what they did, because Coben wasn’t social, he didn’t have a lot of friends, nobody had disappeared at the same time as him, so the idea of ‘someone he trusted’ didn’t —

    Fuck.

    He grabbed the piece of paper from Wolfie, furious at himself for brushing off the possibility, for overcorrecting (more than fucking once, too) and scrawled in large letters the question that did need asking. He gave it back to Wolfie — who made a sound halfway between a whimper and a curse. But he returned to the smoke curling up from his desk to ask it.

    “Did Coben Garrow leave the Palace on the night of May 2nd with Mary-Ann Gilbertadocht Daniels?”

    The smoke coiled and twisted and turned —

    Yes.

    Jacob sprinted out of the office, tearing off his mask as he nearly flew down the stairs, hauling himself over the banister once he was close enough and hitting the hardwood with both feet. People scurried away from him with surprised noises, but he didn’t care — he scanned the faces, the crowd for any visual on someone fleeing or hiding. No sign of her. He marched down the first floor of the Centrum, sticking his head into each office —

    He pulled out the radio once he reached the other end of the Centrum, biting his tongue until it bled so he’d stop feeling so fucking helpless. “All teams attention, be on the lookout for a new suspect. Details sent through Smoke thaum, seventeen-year-old clan girl.” He pressed the radio to his forehead, still feeling the urge to slam it against his head. Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot. He’d been so busy convincing himself he was twitching at nothing, still trying to do penance. “We have thaum info that the package is unharmed for now. Over.”

    For now.

    Mary-Ann was Advolk.

    And he was in so much fucking trouble.

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    Mary-Ann returns! And now you all see why I was so excited :3 The Advolk will be showing up lots, so don’t worry – if you’re having a flinch reaction to them conceptually, I completely understand, and I only ask patience. (One of my biggest influences is FMA 2003, if that helps with what my approach to “villains” is.)

    While I was working on this chapter, it kept striking me that I’m not used to characters like Jacob being both gay/bi and the Badass One – usually if a character like that’s bi it’s severely downplayed, and at least in military-themed stuff, gay characters are… not common. I know this is changing, but it was just really odd to realize partway through.

    Minor edits on July 4th!

    Song: Survive by Night Club

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  • All The Lonely People /// a poetic flash fiction

    May 24th, 2022

    tw: childhood (sexual) abuse, PTSD/mental illness


    There’s a ringing in the air that she can’t quite place
    a little everywhere, every moment, when she turns her head
    here and there, like the calm before the storm, like the rising
    of a quake, the seismographic shake, and it follows, follows, follows—

    She is twenty-nine years old; she works at a bank; she walks to work and back each day; she pays her rent on time.

    She calls her mother on Mondays; they talk about the weather; they talk about when she’ll get married, she laughs it off again—

    “Mother. Please. I’ll meet someone, when I have the time. It has to be the right man.” And really, it’s a little more complex, because—

    She has things in order now. And nothing has to change.

    –it follows and it falls in step, the fear of some unstable
    puzzle piece that she can’t find – it lives and grows
    in the clefts and cracks of her mind, pulsing in the hollow
    cavern of her ribcage, where it whispers, whispers, whispers—

    She is twenty-nine years old; she runs on Sunday mornings; she does her groceries on Wednesdays at the local store; she donates to the Mission when she’s got some extra cash, and she keeps meaning to go to the shelter for a cat—

    There is nothing wrong with any of this. The picture is intact. So what’s missing? What’s missing? What’s missing?

    Does she want it back?

    –it whispers things that she can’t hear and she doesn’t want to,
    the sibilance erases all the consonance away,
    leaves her only with the vowel-shaped impression
    of a guilty conscience and a ghost that’s rising, rising, rising—

    They don’t talk about it, her and her mother, they never have and never will, they dodge around it in conversation, there’s no call on the anniversary.

    The dead have no power over the living. That’s what they say; she is twenty-nine years old and the departed have no sway. She works at a bank. She walks to work and back each day. She pays her rent on time, she wants to get a cat—

    –all these little facts like cards in stacks and when one starts to bend she tries so hard to put it back.

    Everything’s just fine. Don’t worry. When she calls her mother, she doesn’t hit a dial tone or get told it’s the wrong number. When she talks to her mother, she doesn’t hear another voice, whispering in the background about how she made her choice—

    Nightmares, nightmares, stay where I put you.

    –it rises and it rises like the tide and salt-born sea
    and bone-dust and fossil and petrified-black hearts
    and she has managed so far so why not manage more
    the mind’s a crystal palace but the body keeps the score—

    She is twenty-nine years old; she runs on Sunday mornings; she tries not to look at red flags as invitations and not warnings. The storm’s been over now for years and still new things keep dawning, like how not acknowledging a ghost doesn’t stop its haunting, and—

    –has anybody noticed that she never joins the games? Of ‘Never have I Ever’ and ‘Spin the Bottle’ and ‘Truth and Three Lies’?

    –have people started noticing the way she holds her keys? Claws at her knuckles, she’s so quick to improvise–

    –have they wondered idly why she’s terrified when punished? Like it’s just an excuse for something worse, something hidden in the dirt and crawling words–

    –have they ever asked, or thought, about the cut-out pretty hole
    that’s left in her mantra when she recites her normal, normal days
    there are lots of absent fathers, there’s nothing special here
    except the fact that she won’t leave a door unlocked
    or that she hasn’t kissed a man without a knifeblade in her heart—

    She is twenty-nine years old.

    She will hit thirty soon; her father will be ten years dead; she will quit her job without knowing just why she’s doing it; she will stop running, her vigilance too acute; she will ‘think about’ the cat forever but never get around to it; she will keep insisting that there is nothing wrong.

    –does she remember? It kind of depends
    on the day, the hour, the moment you ask, which shadows shade her face,
    which stone she’s last engraved, whether she’s been saved or safe
    little illusions keep you numb, shove the corpse behind the door
    the mind’s an easy swindle but the body keeps the score.

  • Chapter 18: Nightshade Pupils

    May 15th, 2022
    CW: implied-but-clear transmisogyny/homophobia, bullying, violence, implied sexual assault, ableism, racism/colorism/anti-indigeneity (sort of ticks all the boxes)

    The last polio epidemic to sweep Elessa was from 1896-1898. To the horror of manor families, proletariat and disenfranchised alike, however, the Judge showed a shocking lack of interest in slowing its spread. Rather than using the emergency powers he’d claimed a decade before to enforce mandatory quarantines, supply families with aid or even support the doctors trying to save the afflicted children, Forrath simply pretended it wasn’t happening. Worse, it seemed that he was happy to encourage the disease’s effects in the poorer parts of the capital cities, punishing factories and poorhouses that chose to shut down while with the other hand simply allowing the manor schoolhouses to make their own decisions — most of which tried to follow his example, and suffered for it. Only the election and intervention of Tribune Weiss drew the epidemic to a close, and the children of Elessa paid a terrible cost.

    Excerpt from “The Dragon of Vijchmaar: Chapter Five: Absolute Power” by Rowena Angdocht Gweon Zeng-sun, 1919

    Rook had fought demons before. Not often — wraiths or phenomena were more common — but demons showed up here and there. The drabuka that Phania and Wolfie had unwittingly unleashed had been the first — albeit a fairly harmless example. One time, he’d been on a mission in Meergaarten and nearly gotten poisoned by an adweg. That one he’d trapped rather than killed, which he would have bragged about more if he hadn’t been flailing about in a near-panic knee-deep in swampy water. Then there’d been the lizard… thing he actually had killed in the forests outside of Kiesland, nearly the size of a car. That one had given him the normal kind of nightmares for a while. But the idea of intelligent demons was new to him, and despite what Csindra had said, he wasn’t entirely giving up the idea that it might be one of those instead of an odjaken, which sounded even worse.

    So, he needed equipment. Smokework, Songwork, all his tricks were all well and good, but when it came to anything with feral magic, you needed more than that. That was what the traps were for.

    And if he’d been able to find the damn trap he wanted, he’d have been less frustrated.

    “Looking for something, Zeesohn?”

    Great. Just what he needed. He was shoulders-deep in military ordinance somewhere he wasn’t technically supposed to be, and nobody he liked called him Zeesohn. He extricated himself from the box, preparing an excuse —

    —and found himself face to face with Bryan Fairfax.

    Fucking great.

    It was impossible, Rook knew, to be the kind of person he was without making enemies. Not even because of his attitude, which he could begrudgingly admit could do with some work. Most people couldn’t even enter the military academy or take the exams with the Colleges to become a registered Thaumatist or Thaumatist-Soldier until they were eighteen. He was… an exception.

    “Bryan,” Rook sighed in response, which might have been a bad move, because Bryan’s false grin turned into a scowl. As far as Rook was concerned, when someone had been hounding you for six months, you’d earned first name privileges, especially when Rook could hardly be bothered with the last name thing with people he actually liked. “Don’t you have some puppies to kick or something?” Or friends to steal? He added. Not that he was taking it personally or anything that Bryan was engaged to Phania. It wasn’t like Phania even liked the guy.

    “And here I thought you’d be happy to see me.”

    “Why on earth—” Rook cut himself off, fuming. He wasn’t as clueless as people thought he was. He knew perfectly well he couldn’t talk back to Bryan the way he wanted to. It was just like Scheffen had been saying; her actions reflected on Jacob, because Jacob wasn’t from a manor family. Rook wasn’t just a commoner; he was beyond a nobody. No family, no protection, no backup. Whereas the Fairfaxes… “Look, uh, I don’t really have time for this. Can we pick this up later?” He might not be talking to Phania anymore, but that didn’t mean he wanted to pick a fight with her fiancé.

    “Oh, what, you call the shots now?”

    Bite your tongue, Rook, don’t rise to the bait— “You might have missed the memo, but not only do I outrank you now, I outranked you last time, too, Lieutenant. So, yeah, I do a little bit.”

    That had probably been a bad move, from the way Bryan’s cheeks were turning red with humiliation, but it had felt awfully good. Rook returned to the box, and to his joy, glimpsed the trap he needed stuck near the bottom on the side—

    “I want to know how you got Major rank.”

    “By being promoted from Captain, Bryan, it’s not that hard to figure out,” Rook replied, mostly distracted by pulling out the trap. It didn’t look like much; it was a disc of silver, about the diameter of a large book, with a series of crystals embedded around the outer edge.

    The kick took him by surprise, and he managed to hang onto the edge of the crate to avoid falling over entirely, hissing in pain. Fucking steel-toed boots, and Bryan had aimed for the back of his knee, too. It would have hurt even if he’d had normal knees, and he managed to suppress most of his reaction. Don’t let on how much that hurt. Don’t do it. Don’t give him ammunition.

    “I want to know what you did to get Major at eighteen, shitlips.”

    One day, Rook thought, mood officially soured, I am going to beat the crap out of you and enjoy it. Consequences be damned. “Classy. I earned it.”

    “Yeah. Bet your knees are sore.”

    It took a moment for Rook to catch on, especially since his knees did hurt — they were the joints that gave him the most trouble. A lot of things went over his head – usually he let them. More often than not, he’d know there was some sort of joke in something and let it go, because he couldn’t be bothered. But this one stung. It stung because, bis Nirgendveugel, this was what Bryan had been bitching about the whole time, wasn’t it? Rook had skipped the academy and started off at 2nd Lieutenant at fourteen, and to someone like Bryan, that looked like privilege, because he couldn’t recognize the silver spoon in his own fucking mouth. And Bryan had played fair, kind of, right up —

    —hah. Right up until Phania wasn’t around.

    He’d been trying, so hard, to play nice. Fuck it. “If you wanted a turn, you just had to ask,” he leered — and when Bryan swung a fist at him, this time, he caught it. Fuck you, he seethed, and the pain from his knees shifted, changed, turned into power. It came so easily, now. He’d done Bloodwork so much that it wasn’t so much a question of making it into magic as no longer stopping it.

    Bryan’s smug smirk began to fade as Rook’s hand squeezed around his.

    “I didn’t get here by sucking dick, Fairfax. Although if that’s what gets you off, go right ahead.” He kept squeezing, and he’d been in pain for days, he was fucking tired of this, at least he could do something with this, and distel und visser, it was satisfying seeing the way the older boy cowered, wincing as his knuckles began to crack. “I got here by being scarier than you.”

    Bryan sank down to one knee, looking ready to cry. His pupils were pinpricks in his eyes —

    -what’s he reacting to, this isn’t enough—

    “Oh, now who’s on his knees-?’

    “Rook.”

    The voice cut through the haze of pain and fury, and Rook let go of Bryan’s fist. Almost immediately, Bryan looked ready to do something — and there was a flash of silver as something cut through the air. A gust of air that might have been a squeal left his mouth.

    “I suggest you leave,” Csindra said almost conversationally. “He gets in a bad mood when he hasn’t had his coffee.”

    Bryan didn’t need any more encouragement — especially when the axe buried into the crate wood began to shift, then hurtled back through the air. By the time it returned to Csindra’s hand, he was gone.

    “You know,” Rook commented, trying to sound normal, “I forgot it did that.”

    “I try to keep things novel. You really scared the daylights out of him.”

    “Yeah, well… he had it coming. He’s not supposed to be in here either.”

    “Don’t doubt it. You get a lot of people like that?”

    Rook looked up at her — then tore his eyes away, face burning in humiliation when he realized she’d heard more than he thought. “Happens. Got sick of it today.”

    “Mm. Be careful.”

    “Careful?”

    “Check your teeth.”

    His teeth? What on earth did that mean? He shrugged her off, trying to look casual — but as he bent back down into the crate, he experimentally ran his tongue over his teeth, and his shoulders tensed up in sudden terror as his tongue met a ridge of points. Terror, because he hadn’t noticed himself doing it, and because Csindra hadn’t been surprised. Had she noticed his fingers the other night? Or — worse — had there been other things he hadn’t been noticing?

     Relax, he told himself, lifting the trap out of the crate and forcing himself to breathe. You probably did it with the Bloodwork. It’s teeth. They’re dead cells. It’s not anything important.

    Still, he handed the trap to Csindra, nervously checking the rest of him as discreetly as he could.

    “Rest of you’s fine. He probably thinks he hallucinated the teeth.”

    “I’m probably hallucinating them,” Rook mumbled. After a moment, he checked his teeth again. Flat and normal. The only points were the normal ones on his incisors. Perfectly ordinary. “What’s the, uh — where’d you get that axe, anyway?” The topic change was conspicuous, but it was easier than trying to cope with the fact that Csindra was taking this part in stride. Was she just hiding the surprise? He wouldn’t put it past her.

    “If I told you, I’d have to kill you.”

    “I hope you’re joking.”

    She laughed a little at that, strapping it back into its sheath. “I guess you can’t really arrest me again. Can you?” she added nervously.

    “You stole it, huh?”

    “Years ago,” she added defensively. “They weren’t using it. I don’t think they even knew it was magic.”

    “Most people wouldn’t consider that justification for theft. However, I’m not most people. And I’m curious, and the car’s gonna take a while to get here.” At Csindra’s questioning expression, he tried not to roll his eyes. “We’re not going to a stakeout on public transit, Csindra.”

    “Look, I don’t know these things. I was prepared to walk.”

    “And we’d be exhausted by the time we got there. You don’t do these a lot, do you?”

    “I’m a merc. Stakeouts aren’t usually in the job description.” They’d reached the main gate, and she leaned against the iron fence, humming a little. “It was, uh, two years ago, I guess? Me and Bryd teamed up for a job in Drijkanberg, on one of the manors.”

    Rook faintly remembered the name from her file. “Bryd… Brydan? Kaval Brydan?”

    “Oh, nav’ti vol. I forgot he’d be in there.” She looked distinctly embarrassed.

    “This was the one where you got caught?”

    “Only a little caught,” she protested. “I was new to the breaking-and-entering thing.”

    “And on the list of ‘things not to say to a soldier’…”

    “You hired me because of all the laws I break,” she retorted, which was true, so he let it lie. He was still grinning, though. There hadn’t been a lot of details in the file, and he didn’t remember all of them — the name had stuck because he’d made a note of possible other leads, but that was all. “Anyway, the plan was to break into their vault and see what we could make off with. Turns out Bryd’s recon wasn’t quite up to snuff, so yeah, we got caught. Lucky thing was it was the Lady there, not her son, so we got off with a month each in prison.”

    “That easy? Why?”

    She really did look a touch — well, not pink. More like copper. “Uh. Well, I wasn’t actually seventeen yet, and Bryd’s the same age as me—”

    Rook couldn’t help the sudden wave of cackling laughter, or the fact that he nearly fell over. It wasn’t his fault. It was just that Csindra mostly pulled off the big tough muscle thing, and then every now and again — just every so often — he got a reminder that they were the same age. “She let you off because you were kids?”

    “It was really sweet of her!”

    “So you promptly went back and robbed her again.”

    “Not again. We didn’t actually rob her the first time. Get your facts straight.” She did smirk a little. “…Little bit. We didn’t take that much.”

    “Again, justifications—”

    “We barely made a dent in that vault, Rook. It got me this axe, paid for food and lodgings for six months, and I sent enough money back to my mother to pay for her food for another six.”

    Oh. Well, when you put it that way. “Can I see it?”

    Csindra pulled a face at that, then shrugged. “Won’t work for you, if that’s what you want to try. I have to be the one to throw it, so don’t make work for me.”

    “Good to know.” Although that just raised further questions about how the damn thing worked. He’d assumed it was a wielder’s enchantment – whoever threw it would have it return to their hand. A personalized enchantment, he’d assume Csindra herself would have cast. The way she spoke about it, though — well, she’d as well as said she hadn’t.

    When she handed him the axe, he ran his hands carefully over it, avoiding the wickedly sharp edge on both sides and putting his bag between him and the head facing him. It was steel — not stainless steel, no, but with something else in the alloy. “Cobalt?” he asked.

    “Molybdena.”

    He paused, and stared up at Csindra. “Bullshit.”

    “Swear to Nirivite.”

    “You can’t use molybdena.”

    “Well, someone did.”

    “How do you know?”

    “Bloodwork’s good for a lot more than just breaking walls, Rook. I guess I have more to teach you than I thought. It’s steel with molybdena, cobalt and nickel.”

    He stared down at the axe again, suddenly extremely glad he’d never been cut with it — and extremely glad that Csindra’s prior arrest had been before stealing it, not after, because she would not have gotten off so lightly. His perspective had already changed immensely. This wasn’t just an axe, this was probably one of a kind, and a mystery. Factories were only now starting to use molybdena reliably; he knew because Scheffen was trying to use it in her projects. It had a melting point higher than almost any other metal currently in use.

    Which was exactly why an axe that had to be at least fifty years old couldn’t possibly have it in the blade. Maybe the blade had gotten reforged at some point. That was the best explanation he had.

    He ran his hand down the central pole, then paused at where the metal wrapped the shaft between the two blades. There was a seal stamped there, slightly corroded — no, as he leant closer, he realized it wasn’t corroded. It was simply that the paint that had originally been there had flaked away. Or scrubbed, he thought with a sudden jolt as he recognized it. A flame within a circle.

    House Forrath.

    Csindra hadn’t said which manor family she robbed.

    He swallowed, mouth suddenly dry. He didn’t know his history well enough to know if this had belonged to any of the Forraths. He imagined if it was any of the ones still alive, Csindra would have heard about it by now — but that wasn’t any more comforting. Still, he couldn’t imagine that Csindra had just happened to steal a weapon that belonged to Endon Forrath.

    Rook glanced uneasily up at Csindra, wanting to ask why the enchantment responded to her alone, and not really wanting to at all. She was resolutely not looking at him. Not a question she was likely to answer, then, even if he asked it. So he stood up, ready to hand it back —

    — and nearly fell over. “Pissen ridder!”

    “There’s a reason I waited until you were sitting down, Rook.” Csindra retrieved the axe from him before he fell over and hurt himself with it, resheathing the blade and sliding the pole back onto her back with an ease that did not give away how fucking heavy the thing was.

    Rook looked at Csindra’s arms with a twinge. “…So, I’m starting to think your Cutter magic is the least of my concerns.”

    “Hm?”

    “How much can you bench press?”

    “More than you weigh, easy. But you look ready to drift off in a strong breeze, so that doesn’t say much.” She did look smug, though.

    “Come on. You got a number?”

    “Do I look like I go to the gym? Raivita’s supposed to be a double-handed weapon, but that’s all I got.”

    “Raivita. That’s a pretty name,” he wheezed. Then the rest hit. “Double-handed?”

    “Well, yeah, but I needed more flexibility, and what’s the point of a boomerang enchantment if you need two—”

    “You’re insane!”

    “I’m a Cutter! It comes with the territory!”

    “Clearly, since you apparently robbed Vijchmaar.”

    Csindra pulled a face at that. “Oh, you noticed. Yeah, I had a grudge.”

    “Against Forrath?”

    “Who doesn’t?”

    Okay, point. Rook sometimes felt like he was the only person who didn’t have something personal against Endon Forrath, and that was only because he’d shown up too late. He saw the after-effects all over the place, though; in the way people would twitch at him sometimes when he showed up at their door, with different expectations from the military than he’d been led to believe, and in the tensions between people older than him, with careers predating Garrow and parts of their lives he couldn’t even imagine. By the time the car pulled up, he’d almost — almost — convinced himself to drop the issue, that it was a coincidence that Csindra had an axe that had belonged to the Forraths; the Forraths, who were famous for auburn hair and tempers to match, who specialized in fire magic so much that Endon Forrath had been called the Dragon of Vijchmaar, and who he couldn’t imagine going light on any thieves. Even teenagers. Especially teenagers.

    Then again, he thought, he’d been warned enough times by Scheffen while searching. Some might call him lucky, being able to start from scratch; not everybody liked where they came from.

    ——

    You remember, only in pieces, what it feels like when she touches you. You don’t stop her. You play a part.

    You remember thinking, I should have told her that I’m not here,

    You remember that it feels good but only in fragments.

    You remember that she does not know. She does not know. You have gotten so good at pretending. You will pretend, and pretend, and pretend until she is gone, and you will try and make yourself feel something later, and you love her too much to tell her that something is wrong—

    You are drowning.

    You are drowning.

    You are drowning.

    ——

    “Rook. Rook.”

    It was dark under the water; it was dark, and cold, and he couldn’t find Dimitri, and —

    “Rook!”

    He startled awake. That had been happening too often lately — not him getting woken up, but the horrible sense of being wrenched out of something. He hadn’t meant to fall asleep at all. In fact, he couldn’t quite remember it happening.

    Dimly, he realized two things — one, that the light had changed and that it was early afternoon, and two, that the car had stopped. “Oh. We’re here?” They’d stopped to pick up a few things, extra plants for his Smokework and some snacks in case they were there all night — you couldn’t depend on manor families to actually offer — and then…

    The water. That was all he knew.

    Csindra glanced up-front, but the driver was leaning out of the window, talking to a servant in a black coachman’s coat. Still, she lowered her voice. “Rook, are you up for this?”

    “What? Fuck you. Course I am.”

    “You can’t blame me for asking. We’re not having a picnic—”

    “Who’s the actual soldier here? I know what I’m doing.”

    Csindra rolled her eyes and shifted back. Rook couldn’t blame her. He was being an ass, and he knew it; Csindra had just as much experience as him, and frankly, being a mercenary seemed more fraught. Definitely less job security, and less backup. But he could still feel Bryan’s eyes on him. Something about the way Bryan had looked at him had felt different. Before, Bryan’s harassment had been annoying, a bit stressful, but not charged with the same creeping feeling of being a bug under glass. He wasn’t sure what had changed, but he didn’t like it.

    The driver pulled his head back in, then leaned back towards them. “You’re cleared to go in. Coachman says to go right inside — the missus is in the parlour.”

    Rook nodded, still getting his bearings. “The missus? Markus isn’t home?”

    “Apparently not. It’s Miss Odette home right now.”

    Damn it. He’d been hoping for an adult. Not that Odette wasn’t an adult — but she wasn’t exactly her great-uncle either. And it meant he wasn’t going to float the trafficking topic. “Alright, alright,” he mumbled. He hefted his bag onto his back, nestling his familiar around his neck and rubbing its scales. “Ok, buddy, if you have any hidden magical powers, this’d be a good time.”

    The snake gave him a baleful glare.

    “Other than that, Bitey.”

    “You should think about naming him.” Csindra stuck her hands in her pockets. “Might behave better.”

    The snake nipped playfully in her direction at that, and Rook just shrugged. Naming him would run into the issue of trying to hide that it was the same animal he had with him all the time; either a demon, although his familiar claimed otherwise, or some other sort of creature, but certainly not acceptable under the strictures of thaumaturgy. It would all be much easier to answer if he knew what the creature had even started as. 

    “—Oh, this is what Scheffen meant.” Csindra mumbled, mostly to herself.

    Each of the manor families had a single estate within the borders of Den Elessa – even the Millers, although how that had been secured, Rook didn’t want to know. They varied pretty dramatically; he’d only visited three of them before, and this was his first time to Den Riviere. Den Bergen was where he’d met the Commander; it was a stately, older building, a little dusty, mostly made of flagstones and worn masonry, and constructed on the high point of the River Heilige banks. Den Vandemeer was wider than it was tall, filled with more paintings than people, and a surprising amount of pets who had gotten along well with Bitey. To be fair, he’d been a fox at the time rather than a snake; that probably helped. Den Baer was actually about four houses next to each other, on a stretch of land filled with riding trails and trees.

    Den Riviere was something else again. Rook wasn’t sure if they’d been deliberately trying to outshine the Palace – he wasn’t sure when Den Riviere had been built — but it certainly evoked the same feeling with the faux-columns at the front, and four storeys of brick face dotted with stained-glass windows stared down at them.

    “That’s…a lot. Don’t these people ever get tired of showing off?”

    “I’ve yet to find out,” he replied. “C’mon.”

    “Wait, wait. What do I say?” Csindra asked, fumbling a little. “It’s, uh, Miss, right?”

    “Miss Odette or Mrs. Weiss. Depends if her mother’s there.”

    “What does that have to do with it?”

    Rook snorted, trying to decide how much he was allowed to say. He hadn’t actually met Miss Odette himself, but he’d heard Jacob complain here and there, mostly when he’d had a drink or two. “She’s married. Technically.”

    “Technically…?”

    “She likes to pretend she isn’t. So does her father, apparently. It’s all very…” he gestured vaguely. “I don’t know. Rich people.”

    “How is it I’m more lost than I was five seconds ago?”

    “I say, again: rich people.”

    He walked up the half-circle of the front steps, glancing curiously at the columns supporting the porch and the small, incongruous ramp leading up into the house itself. Then he eased the wooden door open, not entirely trusting the open invitation. “Parlour—?”

    The moment the door opened, though, a warm voice greeted them. “Just around the corner, dear.”

    Rook opened the door the rest of the way, immediately feeling out of place in his all-black outfit and instrument case over his shoulder. The hallway was dark hardwood, gloomy even with the wall-mounted anbaric lights, and the lapis-and-sable carpet that ran all the way to the twisting staircase wasn’t quite worn enough for him to ignore the sea life depicted within the ornate diamond pattern. He took a few steps forward and followed the voice, Csindra close behind. The parlour really was just around the corner — the first room to the left — and filled with even more conspicuous display of status. Blue-green paisley wallpaper, indigo velvet drapes, chairs and sofa with mahogany wood and brocaded upholstery, and of course a painting above the fireplace with their folkloric ancestor. Jean-Luc Riviere, the placard below read, standing above the Zwartstrom.

    Odette herself was sitting by the fireplace, blonde hair tied back into a modest bun with a black milliner’s flower. “Oh! The famous Rook Zeesohn. I’ve wanted to meet you for so long,” she gushed. “Come, come here!” She leaned forward, shuffling her dress around on her legs a little with a rustle of taffeta.

    “Oh, lovely, you have a fanclub.”

    “Hush, you.” Rook approached, trying to find his professionalism somewhere. “Miss—”

    “You have a snake? My goodness, he’s ever so cute, isn’t he? Or is it a she?”

    Rook watched as his familiar dodged away from Odette’s hand, then searched for his place. He was still scrambled from the dream he couldn’t quite remember. “Uh, Miss Odette, I’m here with Sergeant Djaneki, about the, uh, recent murders—”

    “Yes, I supposed so,” Odette sighed. “My cousins aren’t particularly mourned, but it’s a little worrying. And you’re concerned about little old me.”

    He tried not to look too annoyed that she already knew. He had been warned about Odette, once or twice. Sure, Jacob mostly complained about little things, but even before Scheffen had told him straight-out, he’d known Jacob was involved with the Rivieres in some way; and Jacob had let on that Odette wasn’t nearly as helpless as she looked. “It’s the only Riviere residence in town, O- Miss Odette. The actual people inside aren’t really relevant.”

    Odette leaned back in her chair, a touch of a smirk around her mouth. She didn’t seem offended. “And who’s your friend? Sergeant… Djaneki, you said?”

    “Please don’t call me Sergeant,” Csindra replied. “Csindra is fine.”

    “Csindra—? Ooh, that’s a Kanetan name, isn’t it?”

    “Yes. I’m a contractor.”

    “I love your hair. May I—”

    Csindra glared at Odette so ferociously Rook thought the Riviere woman might catch fire, and he had to hide his pleasure as Odette sulkily but obediently retracted the hand that had been ready to touch Csindra’s hair. Who asked to touch someone’s hair? “Miss Riviere,” Csindra continued, a thread of ice in her voice barely detectable but firmly present, “was there anything connecting the people killed?”

    “Ansel, Perry and Neil? Nothing beyond the obvious.” Then Odette raised an eyebrow at Csindra. “You mean the Beckers?”

    “The Beckers, the Hedricks – and Kaullo Angtaiki.”

    “And why would I know anything about that?”

    Csindra sat down on one of the chairs in the Riviere parlour. “Normally,” she said quietly, “I’d expect someone to be a little more torn up about deaths in the family.”

    “It’s a big family, Djaneki. Ansel Rolandsohn was – hm, what is it, second cousins? Peregrine was a cousin once removed, and I truly don’t remember the details of my relation to Neil, other than that he owned Rijder Tor and I don’t know or like his son enough to know what’s to become of it.” Odette inspected her nails with a practiced, careless grace. Rook wondered where Csindra had learned her skills of observation, because rather than the fear she’d had of messing things up, she almost seemed better at this than he was.

    Which didn’t sit particularly well. But he’d always been better at the more direct parts of the job.

    He opened his bag, extricating the binoculars and radio and standing by the broad bay window at the front of the parlour. If this was a normal stakeout, just watching the gates would have been fine — but if Csindra’s theory held up, they were looking for someone actively using feral magic, which was going to be a bitch and a half to protect against. And this was way too big a house.

    “And the Beckers and Hedricks?” Csindra pressed again.

    “You are persistent. Or stupid, one of the two.”

    Csindra gave a smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “Every single one of them was killed in the same way.”

    “I’m the youngest of the Rivieres, trapped in a wheelchair, and practiced with neither thaumaturgy nor military business,” Odette retorted, tapping the wheels of her chair. “If you’re looking for someone to interrogate, my father’s due back from Draaienstrom in a week or so.”

    “Interesting. So it’s just you here at the moment.”

    “And staff, of course. I can’t exactly climb the stairs on my own.”

    “So when did your father leave?”

    And Odette paused — just long enough. Rook glanced back over his shoulder, catching on and frowning. He doubted how much Odette was trapped in her chair, but she was certainly limited by it in a house and a city built for people on feet instead of wheels. Quite aside from that, Jeroen Riviere doted on his daughter. She was married — in name, anyway, but still lived in Den Riviere almost exclusively because of her disability. Aloysius Weiss bore patiently with the unusual arrangement, even the strange double-think of her being both Mrs. Weiss and Miss Riviere, while holding quarters both in his own estates and at Den Riviere.

    But if he had left after the murders had started, then he had left her here with no protection. No thaumatists had been assigned to Den Riviere until now. No bodyguards had interrogated them on the way in.

    Most annoying, Rook sulked, was that Csindra didn’t know any of this. Csindra was reacting to the simple fact that one Riviere had left and another — the vulnerable one — had remained, or been made to remain.

    “I don’t remember exactly,” Odette said finally, but she’d paused a long time already.

    “More than three weeks ago? Or less?”

    “I’m not sure.”

    “Could we ask one of the staff? I’m sure they’d remember—”

    “It doesn’t matter,” Odette cut Csindra off. “I know what you’re thinking, and it’s not like that. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself.”

    “You were just telling me the opposite.”

    Odette was fuming by this point. “Major, I don’t appreciate the way your subordinate is speaking to me.”

    Subordinate—?

    Oh, right. Csindra was technically a Sergeant. Shit. He was almost never actually in command of anyone. “Uh—” Just pretend you’re Scheffen for a bit, he told himself. Easier said than done without feeling like he’d have to scrape the grease off himself later. “I’ll… reprimand her later. Csi- Sergeant, give the lady some room.”

    Csindra gave him a slightly aggrieved look, but leaned back a little, straightening up in the chair. Rook left the window, quickly scanning the sky to check how long they had before dark. Usually sunset was pretty reliable, but it looked like it was going to storm. Then he took a seat near Csindra, frantically trying to figure out how Scheffen… did anything. “Mrs. Weiss—”

    “Please,” Odette scoffed quietly. Rook tucked that quietly away if he ever needed to guess her opinion of her husband.

    “—Understand that we’re on your side here. We’re trying to protect you and your family — but we can’t do that without some more information. This is a matter of national security at this point, and—” He stopped. Odette’s face had changed. She hadn’t put together that Rook wasn’t Investigations. Interesting, what she knew and what she didn’t. After a moment, he kept going. “And I know if anything happened to you, I’d probably never hear the end of it.”

    “From your higher-ups, I presume,” she snorted quietly, trying to cover up how white her face had gone.

    “Them, and Lieutenant Lambert,” he added. Coup de grace, and a stab in the dark. Jacob hadn’t ever said anything, but…

    Odette’s cheeks turned a little pink. “He’s not on this case, is he?”

    “No, no. Conflict of interest.”

    “Right,” she whispered. “Certainly I can see how there’d be issues with potentially investigating his sponsor family.” Rook doubted that was all she was taking from it, and he felt a little slimy, but he hadn’t actually lied. Just guessed. She shifted, and sighed. “…National security?” she said, a little weakly.

    “No one told you?”

    “I only knew about the deaths,” she murmured – then with a touch of anger, “I suppose even little birds get ideas about my delicacy. National security can only mean a few things. Which is it?”

    “Feral magic. Potentially a demon.”

    Odette closed her eyes with a deep inhale. It hadn’t been the answer she’d expected — another curiosity to note down. “Oh, my stupid, stupid, stupid family.”

    “Was one of them trying something—?”

    “No, we’re not largely blessed with thaumatists. There’s a few here and there, but certainly not the men you’re asking after.”

    “Just say it straight, Odette,” Csindra sighed. “We’re not about to tell on you, and by the sounds of it they may have had it coming.”

    Rook winced a bit at that. Maybe Csindra did need a primer or two on being circumspect — but it seemed to land. Odette pursed her lips in a moue, then dropped her shoulders from the tense position she’d been holding. “The fools were involved with the mob. That’s what the Beckers and Hendricks are about — plenty of them are petty criminals, but they don’t have good names to ruin.”

    “What? Why the mob? Aren’t you rich enough?”

    And in response to Csindra’s question, Odette began to laugh. “It’s not about the money, you silly tit. It’s about what you do with it. Me, I could think of a number of more interesting projects to do with my life than buying control of slum towns with drugs and weapons, but perhaps I just lack a man’s perspective on entertainment.”

    “And Kaullo Angtaiki?”

    “Oh, who knows? Probably just another of the bottom-feeders caught up in the whole nasty busine-”

    Csindra surged to her feet, and Rook just as smoothly managed to grab her before she could do anything. Odette stared up at her with not fear, but the casual curiosity of a scientist or an outside observer.

    “Interesting,” she commented dryly. “I was wondering how you’d react.”

    Csindra’s jaw worked behind her skin as she tried to summon up an answer to that. “Bitch,” she snapped finally.

    “Family member? Or just tribal loyalty?”

    “He’s Tosaka, you dumb—”

    “Sergeant.”

    Rook counted his lucky stars that he’d actually managed to shut Csindra up with that, although so, so much of him hadn’t wanted to. He didn’t like Odette much either; he kept almost agreeing with her, and then dizzily feeling like he’d taken a wrong turn somewhere. He didn’t quite understand Csindra’s reactions, though. It was like being caught between fire and ice, and trying to figure out which one he’d rather be burned by.

    “Csindra,” he murmured, “take a walk.”

    “I don’t—”

    He leaned in, whispering low enough that Odette couldn’t hear, “Unfortunately, we have to keep her alive. Take a walk.”

    Csindra looked ready to snarl at him. Then she walked off instead, and Rook felt himself almost deflating. Pissen ridder. Now he was stuck with her.

    Odette, however, had a strange look on her face as Csindra left. Rook couldn’t quite interpret it. He wasn’t the best with expressions, especially when they could mean so many things. He couldn’t tell if she was sad, or contemplating something else entirely. “Well-handled, Major. Especially for someone new to command.”

    “Don’t call me Major. And don’t try buttering me up.”

    “I see you’ve lost your patience. This should be fun.”

    “Are you this much of a smug snake with everyone?”

    “Not everyone,” she admitted. “Just where I can get away with it.”

    That made sense, even if it was particularly vile. Being coddled by everyone meant you flaunted power where you had it. It wasn’t an approach that made her a lot of friends, Rook would wager.

    And how different are you? whispered one of the voices.

    One of.

    Rook shoved that observation, as well as the voice, away. “So why did your father leave you here? Was he involved with their dealings?”

    “Not directly. He’s just… concerned.”

    “But not about you.”

    “I haven’t touched any of that mess. I shouldn’t be a target.” She was sounding less and less convinced, though. “Feral magic wasn’t part of the equation.”

    No, and you weren’t involved in the calculations, as much as you like to pretend. It was a shame, actually, that everybody else kept talking about her like some helpless child. Rook would almost have liked her if she hadn’t been deliberately antagonizing Csindra. Doing it by accident would at least have been forgivable. The fact that he didn’t understand the specifics didn’t take away from it being pointed.

    “It usually isn’t—”

    He stopped. Something was wrong.

    “What? What is it?” Odette asked, a note of rising concern in her voice.

    It was darkening — but not because it was midnight, or because the clouds had rolled in. Something was blocking the sun.

    The ivy at the edge of the bay window had begun to move.

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    COMMENTS

    MAN, Bryan Fairfax sucks. He’s just. Such a goddamn tool. Unfortunately you will be seeing more of him; he’s very much the exemplar of Everyday Bigotry from completely “ordinary” people that is a pretty strong backbone to this book. There’s a reason why he and Odette are in the same chapter (although Odette is much better Overall). However, I am genuinely excited to introduce everyone to Odette Riviere, who is one of my faves. I doubt the elements with Rook have been subtle, but I get so tired of fantasy that doesn’t even acknowledge that disabled people exist. (Kudos to GOT, it at least does have disabled people like…. existing. Small kudos, but kudos nonetheless.) Odette is a polio survivor; something we don’t have as much reference for these days now that polio is pretty much eradicated, but polio tended to go for children, and if you survived at all, you usually had at least some muscle weakness.

    Molybdena is a real thing by the way! I love Csindra’s axe a lot – especially the fact that she’s basically jerry-rigged the damn thing. While we see double-headed axes a lot in videogames and such, they actually weren’t that common for actual battle use. The two heads made them unwieldy and difficult to use, and like Csindra says here, they would have been two-handed weapons. (It tells you a lot about Csindra that she acquired a weapon and immediately set about making it work for her No Matter What. I love her.)

    Edited slightly on July 4th!

    SONG: Monster by Meg & Dia

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