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  • Behind the Curtain: Let’s Talk About Pseudicide

    May 4th, 2021

    TW: This column discusses suicide, ableist harassment, and stigma against mental illness, suicide and particularly personality disorders like BPD.

    Fandom’s got its issues; we all know this. It’s about as obvious a statement as “Star Wars has robots” or “The Reagan administration was bigoted”. But there’s an unwillingness in fandom to challenge some of its more deeply held understandings; while discussions in fandom about content go on every day, fandom social dynamics are only recently starting to be unpacked on a broader scale.

    Some of this is about just the times we live in; some of it’s also personal perspective. If there was unpacking and social discussion happening in the nineties, I didn’t see it and I don’t know much about it! (And I’d be curious to hear about it, but regardless.) But one thing that I really want to revisit as a taken-for-granted idea in fandom circles is the idea of pseudicide. Pseudicide or pseuicide, chronicled on Fanlore, is very simply the act of faking your own death online. Usually this is through a suicide attempt/note; sometimes it’s through a long and painful death, or a sudden car accident. The name itself is a pun on ‘pseudo’, but it’s also a reference to how it can be used to “retire a persona which has come under unwanted attention and/or wank”.

    First of all, this reflects an absolutely garbage understanding of mental health. It’s not that people don’t fake their own deaths. It happens, and you’re not going to see me going to bat for Thanfiction any time soon. But as somebody who has both experienced extreme mental health crises and does major activism around major mental illness, it makes me a little sick to my stomach that this is… the extent of the article on pseudicide. Because I’m sure everybody who’s been in fandom for a while has seen someone accused of this. You fake your own suicide for attention, or to get people off your back, or to make the problems Go Away, and you’re home free! Right?

    It literally never works like that.

    Please consider it from this angle; the ‘unwanted attention/wank’ as chronicled in the Fanlore article is being called by a lovely, neutral name, but usually, this means harassment. It might be the more direct harassment we’re used to talking about – death threats, spamming mentions, reblogs, anon hate, etc. Or it might be the more subtle kind. Social exclusion. Mysterious dropping from exchanges. No one claiming work on events when they used to, or nobody talking to you on fandom servers. This is a type of harassment and bullying that wreaks havoc on particularly people with existing neurodivergence or mental illness, because you can’t be sure that you’re actually noticing anything. Mistakes happen, right? And sometimes people miss things on Discords. It’s just like that. You just can’t be sure. You never know what people are saying behind your back. And there’s also a presumption that often takes place that people know when they’ve stirred up massive amounts of fandom wank; certainly it’s very common that there’s huge amounts of discussion about a fic or an event or an individual that never reaches them until it’s too late.

    So immediately, the framing of pseudicide not just on Fanlore but in fandom communities has a major weak point where it’s seen as an escape button from something of the person’s own devising, rather than a response to harassment or bullying. The moment it’s reframed as the second, suddenly it seems… just as likely that somebody actually attempts suicide. Take a recent incident, for example; a 15 year old targeted for harassment over an NSFW gore/horror RPF fic attempted (and possibly succeeded; there’s been no word since) suicide in response. In this case, nobody accused the kid in question of pseudicide. But what’s the difference? (And while she wasn’t accused of pseudicide, certainly others were accused of using her death for fandom drama, so there isn’t too much faith to be had in humans there.)

    Secondly, possibly the most dangerous assumption in this is the idea that when somebody attempts suicide, people immediately stop whatever they’re doing to comfort them. That it’s an immediate off-switch for whatever harassment or Valid Criticism they may be receiving, and they’ll immediately look like the victim. This is such an ingrained idea, in fact, that people will double down and dig in their heels exclusively to “counteract” this supposed idea. This has absolutely no bearing in reality. While I hear about this theoretically happening, I actually don’t think I’ve ever once been witness to a situation where somebody’s suicide, attempted suicide, or even professed suicidal thoughts bent the situation to their favour at all.

    “But Elliott,” I can already hear the response- “people only accuse others of pseudicide if there’s a lot of proof.” So, here’s the other problem. Not only is this not true anyway, people have no idea what suicidality looks like. I’ve been blatantly and repeatedly accused of pseudicide, despite being exceedingly honest about my own mental health and suicidality. The main factor largely appears to be that I attempted more than once in a short span of time… because to people who aren’t chronically suicidal, this is a Sign Of A Liar. The second factor is that I was suddenly “normal” and “fine” again in between these attempts. Except… these are both bang-on, by-the-book, stereotypical symptoms of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). It’s literally what got me diagnosed. The fact that people on the Internet want to decide whether or not somebody else is faking suicide based on their flimsy and lacking understanding of mental health is abysmal as-is, but when the “signs of faking” are based on one of the disorders that is actually at highest risk for death by suicide, it’s all the worse.

    It’s even more notable when there’s very little taken into account for what would actually prompt somebody to fake their own death. Because people do do this. Victoria Bitter/Thanfiction did so in order to avoid legal action and – notably – faked her death to her own parents. This wasn’t a suicide note left on Tumblr; this was a planned-out and executed event both on and offline. It’s also a common issue when abusive partners threaten suicide attempts to keep their victims close, out of fear that their abuser will go through with a suicide and it’ll be “their fault”. But in these cases, there’s a very clear aim at play. Simply escaping an inescapable situation is… well, uh, a common prompt for suicide, period. That’s what motivates a massive number of suicidal people to begin with, so if your reason for suggesting that somebody “faked” a suicide is that they felt trapped, you probably don’t know the first thing about suicide. It’s also a good sign that somebody didn’t fake it if they come back, try to clean up the mess and go about their day; if they’re embarrassed, trying to hide it, or otherwise trying to ignore it, then it wasn’t for attention, because they’re not looking for attention. Mental breakdowns are humiliating. They shouldn’t be; but frequently, they are, and the last thing we want to do is answer everybody’s concerns when we’re stinging both from the fact that we felt horrible enough to try, and the mixed relief and upset that we didn’t succeed. (Being suicidal sucks, is the point.)

    Finally, if somebody does fake their own death, and you find them elsewhere on the internet, and you’re fairly sure it’s them…

    Ask yourself first if they’re doing anything bad. Because mental illness can also mean we fake something to get away from what’s upsetting us, or to get out of a bad situation without actually trying to kill ourselves, and then go try to reinvent ourselves. If somebody’s up to the same shit or doing something actually wrong, then sure. Call it out. But sometimes, I see the impulse to call people out on just… existing. The worst thing that somebody’s done wrong in those cases is worry a lot of people and upset them, and that’s bad, of course – but it’s not anything that can get fixed by yelling at them months or years after the fact. If you weren’t close to them, leave it alone.

    Pseudicide is a word that – ironically – I wish would die. It describes a concept, sure – but people have gotten awfully comfortable describing any instance of suicide or suicidality that doesn’t describe their narrow view of “suitable” mental illness as it, and it’s made life difficult for far too many mentally ill people. It shouldn’t be more dangerous for people to express that they’re suicidal than to keep it to themselves; and if fandom’s so accepting and open for marginalized people (it’s not) then why do we have a word for people who “fake their own suicide” but not ay acknowledgement of people who abuse and harass the mentally ill because they can get away with it?

    The least I can ask is that the next time you’re in a situation or a social group where people are starting to raise the idea of a faked suicide, consider being the voice that suggests otherwise. That we don’t know what’s happening in somebody’s life – and that even if you or your group don’t have it in you to be actively compassionate, it costs you nothing to step back, stay out of it, and not make it worse.

  • Behind the Curtain: The Line Between Harassment and Public Pressure

    April 20th, 2021

    It was perhaps two years ago now, maybe more, when an account on Twitter with a reputation for going after marginalized creators admitted – I paraphrase – that they went after marginalized “problematic” creators on purpose. They wanted them to lose their jobs, their livelihood, to be driven to the streets. They were not welcome in their community, ever. They weren’t ‘accidentally’ depriving vulnerable people of their income and safety nets; it was their intent, from the start, and believed the people in question deserved it.

    Possibly around the same time, possibly earlier – the dates get fuzzy – an account from a slightly different part of Twitter said something eerily similar. They said (I am once again paraphrasing) that when sites would not take action against racist fictional content or its creators, it was up to activists to “make their lives hell”.

    I’ve deliberately taken as much identifying information out of these anecdotes as possible. As a result, they’re not direct quotes. They might be inaccurate, at least in part; I might be ascribing to one what another actually said. But these things were said; that much I know. Why take out the identity of people who’d say such obviously awful things? Because – well – ultimately, the people who said these things may or not believe them. They might be operating in bad faith, they might have ulterior motives, they might genuinely be this zealous. But it’s also part of a pattern.

    Online harassment has been a thing almost as long as the internet itself has. However, as the interconnectedness of the internet itself increases and continuously piles us closer and closer, condensing us into ten, five, three social media sites – it’s taken on a very different nature than the flame reviews and anon brigades of twenty years ago. Certainly 2001 wasn’t fun. But somewhere along the way, two very different concepts have coalesced into some monster that combines the worst parts of both. What is the difference between twenty thousand people pressuring a state senator to do the right thing, and twenty thousand people telling off Rick Riordan for a bad authorial decision? What’s the critical tipping point between harassment and simply a lot of people involved in earned backlash? And at what point does “a lot of people saying the same, obvious, thing” become a tidal wave of bad-faith negativity? It’s not an easy distinction.

    Both of the people quoted at the beginning, at least from an idealistic standpoint, are operating from points that make sense. They’re wary of bigots and predators. Deplatforming is, after all, a form of collective action that came from the left. One of the most efficient weapons against a bigot is to simply remove their ability to spread their ideas; this is the logic behind Alex Jones’s banning from most social media sites, which had a notable effect. Donald Trump’s final banning from Twitter actually decreased violence in the U.S.A. as a whole, after four years of his inane tweets nearly starting wars. Even on a smaller scale, this works; the band Lostprophets was a staple of the alt-rock scene for a long time, until 2013, when Ian Watkins (the lead singer) was outed as a monstrous serial child abuser. His other band members dropped him like he was toxic (and he is) and he went to jail – but since he’d still be getting royalties, they made a new band, and the name Lostprophets became anathema. You won’t hear Lostprophets played or even mentioned in most places anymore, and Ian Watkins is rotting away in jail. And the opposite, tragically, plays out in reverse; harmful shows like 13 Reasons Why get multiple seasons because of ‘hate-watching’, and the choice to ‘separate the art from the artist’ while still putting money in the pockets of transphobes has kept the career of J.K. Rowling enduring long past what would have been its natural sell-by date.

    So, logically, deplatforming should be a perfectly fair and leftist thing to do. How has it warped into something abusive? Well, point one, there’s nothing that is beyond appropriation by abusers. Nothing is so Theoretically Good that it is beyond abuse. TERFs (Trans-Exclusionary Radical Feminists) and other right-wing bigots have realized to great effect that mass-reporting a single account will eventually get it suspended, whether or not it did anything wrong – to name one example.

    But point two, and more challenging, comes back to Audre Lorde. “For the master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house. They may allow us temporarily to beat him at his own game, but they will never enable us to bring about genuine change. And this fact is only threatening to those women who still define the master’s house as their only source of support.” Often, only the first part of this is quoted. The original essay is from 1984 and still extremely relevant, but the full quote is also important. Deplatforming is a useful tool. It is also a temporary one; a stopgap. And – more than anything else – we should not lose sight of who invented deplatforming (or “cancel culture”, if you’d like to bring it home that way). Perhaps leftists are the ones who brought it online or made it crowd-sourced, but the careers of Eartha Kitt, Zero Mostel, and Janet Jackson did not fizzle out or come to a halt on their own. Or, more brutally, the murders of Martin Luther King Jr. and Fred Hampton – the same principle, taken to its logical extreme, to silence what the state did not want said. This isn’t me comparing a “Silence, TERF” meme to those murders, to be clear. But it would be irresponsible to ever be entirely comfortable with the concept, no matter who’s wielding it.

    This is all pretty theoretical, so I’ll bring it back to the main point. What’s the difference between online harassment and online criticism or deplatforming? The border, in my opinion, is going to keep shifting with context, time, etc. But one of the critical points on that border is ‘desired outcome’. Let’s take a racist or otherwise problematic depiction in a book. You take to Twitter, or Tumblr, or Facebook – pick your public forum – and criticize it. Perhaps the author responds! Perhaps they don’t. Now, if an author or author’s friends decide that your one piece of criticism is harassment, that’s clearly bad faith. (Exceptions: if you’ve been going after this author for a while, block-evaded, etc. but that should speak for itself.) But say other people are pointing it out. Again, not harassment. Even if others disagree on whether or not it’s a problematic depiction, A public piece of art is allowed to be discussed in public.

    Alright. Let’s say the author apologizes. It might not be a good apology. It’s common to see the “I’m sorry YOU felt hurt” or the half-assed “apologizing for the wrong thing” apologies here; there’s also a common issue of interpreting apologies as being bad faith because you’re still mad at the person. Or perhaps the apology isn’t accepted because the depiction isn’t fixed. (This can vary! The author might not have any more control, if the book’s already published; this is especially true of older novels getting renewed circulation. Certainly asking G.R.R. Martin to fix something in Game of Thrones for future editions wouldn’t be particularly effective.) You’re under no obligation to accept the apology; but what good does it do to escalate? This is where a very specific change happens; instead of alerting somebody to an issue and asking them to change it and understand the problem, you’re pressuring them to change it “or else”. It depends on the nature of the escalation, but online harassment can involve using emails, contact info, phone calls or even contacting agents to apply pressure. The “or else” becomes pretty explicit at that point. I’ve even seen doxxing enter the picture. And while I’ve used racism as my example here – this all takes on a newly horrifying angle when the seemingly-justified reasons give way to accusations of “promoting pedophilia”, “profiting off of other people’s trauma” (without any grounds for that accusation, usually), “creating child pornography” (fiction does not work that way), or even, horrifyingly, “faking being queer” or “not really being part of the community” usually aimed at bi, ace and non-binary authors. It goes on.

    So what do you actually want to accomplish when you go after somebody? If you’d like an apology, go in with an intent for an apology – and if it’s a bad one (not just an awkward one) then change tack towards something else. But too often, I see something start with a masquerade of Fair Criticism – then just keep going. Anti-shipping is full of this, but it’s not the only offender. What do you want from a content creator if they’ve acknowledged a problem? You’re not likely to change their mind at that point – and any minds changed through constant, boundary-crossing pressure are minds “changed” in a way that not only use the master’s tools, but glory in them in a way that I, for one, want no part of.

    And then, what is actually garnering this reaction? Scale has gotten lost just as much as intent. I’ve used the publishing world and authors in this very much on purpose; fandom sits on one end of the scale, and U.S. governmental officials very much on the other. The people quoted at the beginning of this article may very well have started from places that made sense. Punching Nazis is great. I’m all about punching Nazis. I am all about annoying senators and governors into vetoing trans healthcare bans and passing assault rifle bans, by sheer force of numbers. I greatly approve of K-poppies using fancams against cops in the greatest possible “Nyeh nyeh nyeh-nyeh-nyeh” of all time. But the reason this works – the reason this is ethical – is because the number of people affected and the number of people involved stands a good chance of being equal, if not leaning heavily towards the former. Or, more simply, people with big platforms should expect big blowbacks. It’s part of the job. (Inasmuch as large social media platforms necessarily line up with ‘jobs’, but that’s a slightly different discussion; and it’s very true that somebody who gains 50k followers through cat memes is still going to have less influences than the POTUS Twitter account.) Somebody who posts a fanfiction with racist tropes that are more likely than not completely accidental or subconscious? There’s no world in which you can argue that a fanfic with 50 kudos suddenly getting 500 to a thousand critical comments (and usually hateful ones, when it comes to the fanfiction side of things) is being “deplatformed” and not just bullied.

    Scale isn’t just about exposure, either. My final point on this is that, while everything is politics, not everything is Politics. Fighting for the rights of transgender children is not comparable to fighting for trans representation. Both are important. One affects our lives directly. The other is part of the cultural milieu; a helpful factor that is part of a literary and media landscape that no one person can shift one way or another. The pressure of thousands of people isn’t something to try invoke lightly, and while what happens by accident is beyond most of our control (the nature of viral threads is probably worth a whole PhD study on its own) it’s irresponsible and almost insulting to try summon it for “possible, maybe” predators and Bad Fiction. If you’d like to criticize it, criticize it; if you think the weight of numbers is what will lend your criticism validity, then you don’t have faith in your own analysis. And I think some of us do this unconsciously. We want others to back us up. We want to believe that our causes are all as important as each other – and they are. But there’s important and there’s time-critical and there’s ones with lives at stake, and sometimes you’re just using public humiliation as a cudgel.

    I don’t think this is a monster that any one person can dissect, unfortunately. I can make some distinctions here and there; but there’s things I haven’t even touched on (for example, at what critical mass does ‘fair crit’ become harassment when the participants don’t even realize they’re doing it?) and of course, the always-tricky angle of how public pressure can become harassment when done to a more vulnerable population by dint of existing stereotypes and bias. But as the Left goes through growing pains and re-examines a lot of third-wave feminism’s baggage in light of Web 2.0’s changes, I think this is a topic that will come up more and more – and it’s worth keeping in mind the next time you’re tempted to get on the latest bandwagon, no matter how large or small it might seem.

  • Alkimia Fables: Interview – Avery Lavolier

    April 13th, 2021

    This is an in-character interview with Avery Lavolier from Ghosts in Quicksilver, taking place sometime between Book 2 and Book 3! Preorder Book 2 in paperback over here; wait for the free ebook release on July 15th; or catch up over here.

    Lights, camera, action; Avery Lavolier appears on the set holding a Bridgehead cup and looking less surprised than they really should be.

    DUNSTAN: Could you look a little more shocked? Awed, perhaps?

    LAVOLIER: You gave me a heads up.

    DUNSTAN: It was a cryptic note!

    LAVOLIER: It seemed perfectly clear to me.

    DUNSTAN: It said you’d be summoned to a mysterious place outside of your world at midnight! Signed in blood!

    LAVOLIER: First off, I know blood when I see it. You can’t pass off red ink as blood just because you think it looks cool. Second of all, you’re aware I’m friends with Dionysus, right? (makes a face) Maybe friends is a strong word. It takes a lot to throw me off.

    I scowl and sit down in the director’s chair. Well, fine. I’ll take it.

    DUNSTAN: Fine, fine. But you’ll be extremely shocked to know that-

    LAVOLIER: -You’re the writer of the book I’m in?

    DUNSTAN: Stop doing that!

    LAVOLIER: You’re the one who gave me mind-reading powers.

    DUNSTAN: I’m going to make a bird poop on your head in Book Three. Anyway. To business. I’m interviewing you in the lead-up of the release of Book Two: Sulfur. Would you like to tell the audience a little bit about yourself?

    LAVOLIER: Not particularly.

    DUNSTAN: I think you may be missing the spirit of this.

    LAVOLIER: I don’t like open-ended questions! Can’t you ask me something more specific? Something like Buzzfeed. Five top albums. Favourite movie from the 1970s. Fuck, marry, kill of deceased poets.

    DUNSTAN: Those are overly specific.

    LAVOLIER: Yes, but I can answer them. And technically that is telling you something about me.

    DUNSTAN: Okay, fine, go ahead and answer the questions you’ve gone ahead and provided for yourself.

    LAVOLIER: Gil Scott-Heron’s Pieces of a Man, 1971, Red Sparowes’s At The Soundless Dawn, 2005, The Cure’s Disintegration, 1989, The Chameleons’ Strange Times, 1986, Hozier’s self-titled, 2014.

    DUNSTAN: …You have those on hand?

    LAVOLIER: It’s a good conversation piece. Movie is a tie between Jesus Christ Superstar and One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest. And while technically it’s more ‘smooch’ than ‘fuck’, Sylvia Plath, Langston Hughes, Allen Ginsberg. Or maybe kill Amiri Baraka. Definitely want to kiss Sylvia, though-

    DUNSTAN: How much thought do you put into this?

    LAVOLIER: You realize that I spend a lot of time with Will.

    DUNSTAN: …Oh, god. Right. What’s her answer to that last one?

    LAVOLIER: I think it changes regularly, but she’s expressed a lot of interest in screwing Jim Morrison, if that’s any indicator.

    DUNSTAN: Forget I asked.

    LAVOLIER: No. Your face is too precious.

    DUNSTAN: (clears throat) So, how did you get involved with the elemental community in Ottawa? You mentioned Dionysus.

    LAVOLIER: They played a part, sure. But really, it was, uh – (shifts) I started going to queer events more? The stuff with Dionysus shook me out of the routine, and I ran into Luka. He’s Isaiah and Robin’s boyfriend, so I started hanging out with them, and I was around when they adopted their kid.

    DUNSTAN: Who is also an elemental.

    LAVOLIER: (laughs) Yep. An Air elemental, which is fun to deal with when he’s acting up. And puts a whole new spin on ‘grounding’ someone. Cassandra and Will showed up in there, too. Around the same time, actually, I think? Stuff just kind of kept happening.

    DUNSTAN: You took on a bit of a leadership role.

    LAVOLIER: Oh, no, I don’t like that. I’m not a leader. No, you have people who – run different areas of Ottawa. Some are more, er, gang-minded about it than others. Lila’s a bit too mafia for my tastes. Cassandra’s very idealistic. Me, I’m Switzerland. I help where I can and I stay out of the political squabbles. It helps defuse the worst of the tensions, you know? We all want the same thing. Er, usually. Stay off the radar of the normies, stay out of trouble, don’t blow anything up.

    DUNSTAN: What about you? What do you want?

    LAVOLIER: Pretty much that. I like helping people. And I record what I can. That’s part of the problem with elemental history. All marginalized history, really – nobody really, uh, thinks it’s worth recording, or that it’s real, so our records are patchy. I know what I can do with my powers, but Will’s work in an entirely different way. Way stronger, too. And merde, it’s a little scary, not knowing. So I write things down. I’m happy with that.

    DUNSTAN: That’s nice. I like that. I hope other people appreciate it.

    LAVOLIER: Some do! Some get worried about it falling into the wrong hands, which I can understand. I’m Bajan on my dad’s side, and my grandma talked about obeah sometimes. But she was always too scared to write it down. Nervous about the wrong people doing bad with it, or backlash against my dad for her being a “witch”. Problem is, here I am now, and I’d love to know more, but none of it’s written. It’s all gone with her.

    DUNSTAN: Double-edged sword.

    LAVOLIER: Exactly.

    DUNSTAN: You mentioned queer community and events. What’s the crossover like?

    LAVOLIER: Crossover between queer community and the elemental community? Er, a bit strange, really. You get elemental powers from trauma, right? But it’s not reliable. It’s sort of like playing the lottery. Some people go through horrible traumatic shit and never get powers. Some people have their dog die and end up with world-breaking powers. Not that dogs dying can’t be traumatic. That’s not what I mean. It’s just that trauma is a bit of a – it’s an unreliable measure. So it overlaps, it’s a Venn diagram, but it’s not a circle. It’s a little more intertwined in Ottawa, because Ottawa’s… I shouldn’t say small. Ottawa’s not actually small. It’s a city masquerading as a small town. But everybody kind of knows everybody when it comes to the subcultures, so there’s more connections here.

    DUNSTAN: As opposed to?

    LAVOLIER: Toronto, for example, really. Toronto’s huge, so the elemental “community” or communities can essentially operate completely outside of the queer communities, even though it shares members. And not everybody who’s an elemental is part of the community, and not everybody who’s queer is part of the queer community, and so on so forth. Probably the biggest crossover point is actually in stuff like mutual aid, sex worker groups, stuff like that. Shelters. That’s a big one.

    DUNSTAN: Shelters?

    LAVOLIER: God, that one’s actually depressing. More than usual, anyway. Uh, so obviously, long term effects of trauma, a decent chunk of elementals end up unhoused or transient, drug users, stuff like that. And you get into this cycle in particular of people destabilizing, using stuff like drugs to get a bit of false stability with their powers, but it’s not – it’s skin-deep, basically. It’s a stop-gap. It works sometimes, but not if all the stuff that got things out of control is still affecting you. And if you try to use shelters, that gets worse, depending on your powers. Because a lot of unstable effects affect other people.

    DUNSTAN: Oh. Christ.

    LAVOLIER: Usually it’s not too bad. But by the time you hear about things like localized earthquakes or weird high-pressure phenomena at shelters and mental health wards, anybody who knows what’s up will get over there as fast as possible. Especially Salt elementals, but obviously that’s a bit of a no go at the moment.

    DUNSTAN: There’s other options, though, right?

    LAVOLIER: For core elementals, yeah. Uh, Water elementals can get Fire elementals under control, Fire calms Earth, Earth calms Air, Air calms Water. (beat) I think. One sec. Yeah, that’s right. It’s a circle, but I always mess up part of it. I’m not core, so I don’t have to think about it that often.

    DUNSTAN: Right. And for celestials it’s a little more complicated.

    LAVOLIER: I don’t remember who came up with the term celestials, but it sounds so needlessly pretentious.

    DUNSTAN: What’s the difference between the two, anyway?

    LAVOLIER: Core elements are more centered on the physical world. All of them are things that are here, on this plane, things we can touch and see and feel. Celestial elements are Salt, Sulfur and Mercury, and they’re tied instead to the psyche. I have the full paradigm in my notes somewhere, but – Paracelsus, that’s right – it’s related to Paracelsus. But yes, with us, when Sulfur and Mercury spin out of control, only Salt elementals can ‘naturally’ stabilize us, unless we calm down on our own. Which everybody can do, but not if we’re getting constantly triggered. Salts don’t have any options, but it’s also really, really hard to destabilize Salts.

    DUNSTAN: So what do you do when there’s no Salts around?

    LAVOLIER: Remove the issue, or get away from the problem, mostly. Sometimes that’s not possible, but most of the time, there’s something you can do. With permission from Will, she’s got a really good example – she and Cass can’t spend too much time together because it’s really easy for one or both of them to destabilize. It’s a protective thing, and not anybody’s fault, but ultimately, it’s safer to just keep relative distance from each other. You can’t rely on a Salt or Earth elemental always being around, so knowing what triggers you is really important.

    DUNSTAN: Pretty much the same as PTSD.

    LAVOLIER: Yeah, honestly. PTSD’s sort of a prerequisite to being an elemental, even if some of us don’t present with the more normal symptoms or wouldn’t be diagnosed with it. With any mental illness, managing symptoms is a tightrope balance as it is. We just have different kinds of harm to consider.

    DUNSTAN: I like that you said ‘different kinds of harm’ instead of actual or real harm.

    LAVOLIER: I thought about it. But I’ve hurt people in plenty of ways without my powers ever getting involved, and really, Sulfur’s one of the more dangerous ones without ever leaving a single mark on someone. So that wouldn’t be accurate.

    DUNSTAN: There’s a lot of talk about mental illness being dangerous or how that’s a stereotype. How does that translate for you personally, when it comes to the elemental stuff?

    LAVOLIER: (blows out their cheeks) …Whew. Uh, that gets even deeper than this interview so far. I don’t mind, by the way, before you get all self-conscious.

    DUNSTAN: You peeked.

    LAVOLIER: Sorry. (pauses and thinks it through) I think we get really… worried and tangled up about mental illness being dangerous and danger being bad and something to be eradicated, and how the only ‘good’ way to represent and rehabilitate how mental illness is seen is to defang it. And I don’t agree with that. Why is it we can have movies where Iron Man and Thor destroy entire buildings and Chris Evans derails trains to make social statements – I love that movie, by the way – and we’ll glorify kid-murderer cops, but the moment marginalized people are dangerous, it’s something to fear? Yeah, mentally ill people are dangerous sometimes. Queer people can be dangerous. Black folks can be dangerous. I’m dangerous. That doesn’t mean I don’t deserve to be seen as a person. If it takes me being a bit unpredictable or lashing out for you to dehumanize me or think I’m not worthy of living, then you were always going to, no matter how well-spoken or well-dressed or fascinating I am otherwise. And let’s not get away from the fact that elementals get these powers because somebody hurt us, usually. No, mental illness can be scary. It sucks the worst for the person in it.

    DUNSTAN: How do you put this into practice?

    LAVOLIER: (pauses) You’re asking about Kiera. (sighs) Yeah, a lot of this is excellent on paper. I live by it. I care about it. I’ll defend the people I love with it. But dangerous also means… dangerous to us, too. (Avery is quiet for a few moments) I still stand by all of it. Every single word. I’m a pacifist. I’m a prison abolitionist. But yeah. Yeah, it’s a little harder to, when it’s your friends getting hurt. That’s the hard part, isn’t it? Ideals are easy when they’re protecting you. Not so much when they apply to somebody you don’t like.

    DUNSTAN: It might be a sign that they need to be more flexible.

    LAVOLIER: Oh, maybe. But I’m not comfortable with supporting mentally ill folks who are dangerous and fit “the profile”, then turning around and kicking another out of the fold for being dangerous and fitting the profile. I’m just also not comfortable with spending more energy on a murderer than the people whose lives she’s ruined.

    DUNSTAN: So where does that leave you?

    Avery’s quiet for a long time. They stare into their drink, chewing their lip. They’re tired. They’re stressed.

    LAVOLIER: Switzerland.

    Want to catch up on the lore of Alkimia Fables? Check out the lore bible over here for a quick start.

  • The Gremlin’s Library: Broken and the Broke by Archie Bongiovanni

    April 6th, 2021

    I got Archie Bongiovanni’s poetry zine ‘Broken and the Broke’ through the Wiggle Bird Mailing Club on Patreon, which sends out zines by trans/queer poets every month! In fact, I subscribed specifically because I saw a bit about this one, and I felt my brain go ‘oh….yes… this sounds like my thing’. So, here we are!

    Turns out my brain has excellent taste, by the way. ‘Broken and the Broke’ is 11 pages of dazzling, bluntly fierce, queer punk poetry. It’s short, but that just adds to the effect, and it means the lines slam home with all the more impact. “God bless those trying to hide their sissy wrists.” “Self-sacrificing is fun and you will write a lot of good poetry because of it.” Bongiovanni’s conversational almost-prose almost-verse style just makes it all the more striking – half-Beat, half-grime, all-caps and the kind of thing that sticks with you.

    It’s tough to pick a favourite especially out of ten poems, but I think my favourite excerpt is from “for when those in power screw us over (again)” for the sheer power of the imagery and how much it felt real.

    “My pals led me into the bathroom until i got my sobs under control but if i can’t handle a person selling god damn beanie babies to nobody than how am i to comprehend the enormity of what one man will do for a dollar.

    take solace in that we have beating breathing thriving tender hearts and they are soaked in bitterness and anger but they feel they feel they feel they feel.”

    “for when those in power screw us over (again)”, broken and the broke, archie bongiovanni, page 4

    I am very excited to read more of Bongiovanni’s work – I’m particularly enchanted with the trans-as-default perspective that’s at play through the chapbook, whether or not it’s on purpose, and it’s one of my favourite things about reading indie work from trans creators.

    Archie Bongiovanni’s twitter is at @grease_bat. They sell zines and pins on BigCartel here, and zines at Bookshop here!. Wiggle Bird Mailing Club’s patreon is over here!

  • Genrefvckery: The 70s Called, They Want Their Synth Back

    March 31st, 2021

    If you’ve been following me (anywhere, really) for a while, then you’ve picked up that I go on weird little spiral trips. Music is no exception. Frankly, it’s one of the usual causes! So instead of trying to hit any level of consistency for music columns, here’s a few of the songs from the 70s I’ve been hyperfixating on (or have loved for ages) and context on… why, and what they are.

    1. Love To Love You Baby – Donna Summer

    No, despite appearances, I am not seventy years old. I’ve been rediscovering the true glory of disco through one of my historical fiction stories, and while some of it’s as cheesy as you think (Le Freak cannot be salvaged for me, personally) this song is a masterpiece. It’s also incredibly, embarrassingly sexy. Oh gawd. The single version is a normal, respectable three minutes long, but this one – the original mix – is sixteen minutes, forty eight seconds. Imagine being in a club to this. No wonder so many people had sex at discos.

    A few notes: Listen to the long version, at least once. And listen with stereo sound, preferably headphones. The dual mixing on this is fantastic, and a perfect example of what it means when people say that disco walked so that dubstep, electronica, techno, club music, etc. could fly. The slow build of this song is everything. It’s a song designed to take you from cold as ice, straight from outside, and warm you right up. Too much of a sex metaphor? I can’t help it. It’s a hot song and it is supposed to be one. (What do you think all that moaning is?)

    2. In Time by Sly & The Family Stone

    So fun fact, apparently Sly & The Family Stone were basically the first integrated band in the American music mainstream. That’s wild to me. I mean, it shouldn’t be – we’re talking the 70s – but considering the song of theirs that’s endured the most on regular 70s/80s radio is ‘Everyday People’, that’s awesome. ‘In Time’ post-dates ‘Everyday People’ by a few years, but it’s no less enduring in funk circles. Me, I’m new to actually listening to funk, so I just know the song sounds familiar. Also, that I really like it.

    More than anything else, I love how prominent the bass and drums are in this. Apparently that’s what this whole album did for funk (and probably disco!) music at the time; it shifted a lot of focus onto bass and drums, and you can basically listen to this and Donna Summer and see how jazz and funk slowly used electronic tools more and more to transform into disco – and disco was one of the two genres to inform modern electronica and techno, so there you have it! Black folks invented everything good, y’all. Give your kings and queens their respect.

    3. The Bitch Is Back by Elton John

    This song is WEIRD. I love it, to be clear. And I’m including it here for a reason that will become very clear! But it’s fascinating seeing people categorizing it as hard rock when it almost feels disco-y in places, it’s very catchy, and then I go on the little trip of “why aren’t there more Elton John disco cuts”. Anyway, I do love this song. It’s also a really interesting example of how hard rock has gotten So Much Harder, because even some of the prog rock and punk from the 70s feels soft as hell now, because hard rock became our norm. Imagine Green Day with a saxophone, right? (Actually that sounds like something they’d do.)

    Relevantly, what is with the sax in everything from the 70s and 80s? Where did it go? Bring Back The Sax. I want Bad Guy with Sax. Old Town Road with Sax. WAP with Sax.

    ….I never promised I had good music opinions.

    4. The Musical Box by Genesis

    I know there was some sort of technical innovation around the start of the 70s/end of the 60s that allowed for these ridiculously long songs (this one is 10 minutes) but I actually don’t know what it was! I just know that I actually take quite a great amount of pleasure in disco and prog rock both exploring the possibilities of a longer format. The Musical Box is actually one of the few Peter Gabriel Genesis songs I like – I’m usually not big on their early work, but I like this one a lot for the Drama:tm: of it. (Which, to be fair, is most of Gabriel’s work.) It is interesting as I grow up and realize that some of my issues between Gabriel and Collins are mixing issues, not coherency issues; Gabriel isn’t being quiet on purpose. For this song it works to a degree, because he seems to want the lyrics in the background to a degree, but it’s also another connection to disco – the instruments are the star, not his voice.

    Some of the nursery rhymes they use make me giggle, though. How British can you get? (Spoken as a not-so-proud Brit.)

    5. Metal Postcard (Mittageisen) by Siouxsie and the Banshees

    And now we move from prog-rock into punk! While all the ‘big three’ (Sex Pistols, The Clash, The Ramones) got started around this time, the Banshees weren’t far behind. This song is from their first album, Scream, which came out in 78. Once again, though, it’s fascinating seeing how even punk follows a certain trend – this isn’t the only song of theirs that’s catchy in the kind of way that you could dance to it, even if it’s just headbanging. Music is a social activity first and foremost here, and I kind of like that. Prog-rock is the genre that actively refuses to be danceable, and it’s consciously doing that while also pushing electronic elements to new heights. Punk… is about half and half. Once you hit the 80s it’s rejected the dance thing entirely, but you see the Clash flirting with reggae elements as well.

    I like this song a lot, in large part because it’s not a song that should be a hit. It’s a simple, rough, catchy riff on a guitar that’s too loud and vocals that aren’t as shiny and preened as the other artists of the era, but that’s the whole appeal. The lyrics don’t make sense, either! You just get like… the Vibe. Which is a big theme with the 70s, but that’s the drugs. The mixing on this is really fun, too, because the vocals and guitars are actually quite well balanced – not what you’d expect.

    6. Valentine’s Day by Klaus Nomi

    Okay, TECHNICALLY cheating with this one, which is why it’s a bonus entry. Klaus Nomi was indeed a 70s musician, but this track and the album it’s off of weren’t technically released until 2007. Nomi died in 83, one of the earliest celebrity/musician fatalities of AIDS, and Za Bakdaz: The Unfinished Opera was about two-thirds done at the time. ‘Valentine’s Day’ is my favourite track, and it’s an odd mix of elements; classical instrumentation, operatic vocals, touches of prog-rock stylistic choices, avant-garde inclusion of conversational scraps, and a gothic melancholy to the whole thing. It is an absolute fucking shame he died so young, and I am very glad we have some more of his work to enjoy than we thought we did. Nomi worked closely with Bowie during his short career, and you can tell – there’s the same sense of drama, and if you listen to some of his other tracks it’s even more obvious. (‘After the Fall’ is particularly notable! And very fun.)

    These are pretty randomly selected, but they do give a pretty great – and funny – overview of how genre in the 1970s started exploding. The full results of this don’t play out until the 80s and 90s, but this is the start of it! We got our early synths, our longer tracks, multitracking getting easier, electronic music getting some steam behind it, club music, and funk music influencing everything.

    Next time on Genrefvckery: most unexpectedly good genre-fusions!

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