• Home
  • Contact
  • About Me
    • Publications
    • Books
  • Bell, Clock and Candle (Elessa)
    • The Nowhere Bird (Bell, Clock and Candle #1)
  • ALKIMIA FABLES

Elliott Dunstan

  • Home
  • Contact
  • About Me
    • Publications
    • Books
  • Bell, Clock and Candle (Elessa)
    • The Nowhere Bird (Bell, Clock and Candle #1)
  • ALKIMIA FABLES
  • Chameleon Moon: First Chapter Thoughts

    August 17th, 2018

    I’m holding myself to this one! I just received my copy of Chameleon Moon by RoAnna Sylver, and I’m immediately sucked in.

    The blurb from the back describes the premise that’s then laid out in the prologue; Parole is a city crumbling into fire, quarantined from the rest of the world and left to die by the military and law they once trusted. Now they only have each other, and the bare hopes that maybe one day they’ll get out. The prologue is fantastically written, with a voice on the radio trying desperately to guide people to safety.

    The first chapter takes place ten years later, and follows a scaled lizard-boy named Regan as he attempts – and fails – an assassination. Regan is immediately sympathetic and interesting; I don’t remember the last time I read a book with a lizardfolk (of any variety) main character, and maybe it’s just the books I’ve been reading, but it immediately puts Chameleon Moon into the category of Not Your Normal Fantasy.

    More than that, however, I think what’s exciting me the most about Chameleon Moon is that I think this is the solarpunk/noblebright stuff I’ve been hearing so much about. (Perhaps more of the second than the first.) But I can feel the punk roots underneath it, from the radio announcer warning people not to trust the military to Evelyn’s performance. I’m unsure how Sylver themself describes the book, but even the first two chapters are filled with determined, revolutionary hope in the face of insurmountable odds.

    So! I’m invested, and I can’t wait to see where this goes next.

    I’ll have a full review up once I’m done the novel; in the meantime, if your curiosity is piqued, Chameleon Moon is available for purchase on Amazon. 

    (Added note: I went to look at the publishing information and holy crap? This is self-published? It’s absolutely gorgeous and SUCH high quality. I shouldn’t be surprised, I know, but I was expecting at least a small press with the amount of work that’s gone into the formatting.)

  • The Autistic Experience & ‘Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki’ by Haruki Murakami

    August 12th, 2018

    TW for discussions of ableism, suicidal ideation, and bullying.

    First things first, this is not a review. I did not finish Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and his Years of Pilgrimage; not because the book is bad, but simply because it touches a little too close to home while being incredibly alien. As a result, this can’t be a fair review – instead, it’s a blog post about why the book upset me so much.

    Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki is a novel about a man who, during his first year of college, finds himself abandoned by his childhood friends with no explanation and no reason. Suddenly and with no warning, they stop returning his phone calls, refuse to see him, and finally tell him only that ‘they do not want to see him anymore’ – and that he should ‘know what he did’. Tsukuru spends a good portion of the next year in a suicidal haze, surviving mostly through automation, and several years later, is encouraged by a new girlfriend to find out exactly what happened.

    I could not continue past this point. I knew already that this book would trigger me beyond what I could handle; reading about Tsukuru’s expulsion from his friend group and his inevitable place as the ‘fifth wheel’ and the scapegoat was already upsetting. Even more so was his girlfriend’s insistence that this event must have shaped his life. As an autistic person, this pattern of friendship, expulsion and scapegoating isn’t new. In fact, it’s horrifically familiar, and not only has it shaped my life; it’s been the constant undercurrent of it. When I make new friends, I am immediately on guard if any of them get along better with each other than with me; I assume, despite myself, that they spend conversations with each other mocking the way I talk, the way I act, my beliefs, or my mannerisms. This doesn’t come from paranoia or self-centeredness either – it’s something I’ve come to expect as a natural byproduct of being autistic, and it’s something I’ve seen happen with a lot of other autistic folks as well. It isn’t the One And Only autistic experience (nothing is) but it is very, very common.

    It’s not that a single event like this can’t be horribly upsetting for just about anybody, autistic or not. Quite the opposite. I’ve been exactly where Tsukuru Tazaki is at the beginning of Murakami’s book. But this is a book that needs a very particular, very specified trigger warning, and it’s one that many people who aren’t on the spectrum, or who haven’t spent most of their lives as neurodivergent, aren’t going to pick up on. That being said, what I find triggering to the point of unbearability, others may find cathartic. Kudos to Murakami for tapping into such a gut-wrenching experience; I’m just sad to say I couldn’t make it through it.

  • Review: Sister Mine by Nalo Hopkinson

    August 8th, 2018

    I intended to do another first-chapter review for this one, and then my internet was out and I couldn’t put it down!!

    Sister Mine by Nalo Hopkinson is urban mythic fantasy, very much in the same genre as Charles de Lint’s Newford series and Neil Gaiman’s American Gods but still wildly different. Instead of the standard Irish, Greek and Germanic faeries and gods that tend to stroll the streets, Hopkinson’s book follows the celestial mischief and family bickering of a pantheon reimagined from the Orishas of Southwest Africa. The book follows Makeda and Abby, conjoined twins born from the coupling of a mortal woman and divine man. The surgery that separated them left Abby with a permanent limp, Makeda on anti-rejection meds, and Makeda without any mojo – the magic that marks the celestials from the claypicken.

    As a (mostly) white and Western reader, the Orisha (Orishas? unsure of the pluralization) are completely new to me. However, the care taken in their portrayal and the richness of their mythology shows through in Hopkinson’s writing, and it doesn’t take long to settle into the world and accept it as it comes. I’m unsure how much of the terminology is Hopkinson’s creation and how much is Caribbean patois I’m just unfamiliar with; ‘claypicken’ to mean ‘mortal’, for example, was one that took me a few pages.

    As a story, and a mythical one at that, Sister Mine, is fantastic. Makeda is rightfully angry, if a little bit petty, balancing on the edge between the mystic and the mundane. The prose does the same, dancing effortlessly between musings on why her father is entertained by tentacle porn and mindbreaking passages of pure synesthesia. However, as a novel, Sister Mine leaves a lot of loose ends, and balances possibly too many plotlines at once. I would have loved to see the novel be perhaps 50-100 pages longer, to give all of the characters a little more room to breathe. Some stories do well at breakneck speeds; Sister Mine is a story that should take its time in the telling. Additionally, some of the plot twists in the last third of the book come a little out of the blue, taking an already-strange book into the realm of disbelief. (Of course, magical realism and urban fantasy always tread that line to begin with.)

    Favourite character: Makeda is a standout, but I have to say, the living embodiment of Jimi Hendrix’s guitar is a favourite. Not just because of who he is, but because he’s so damn nice.

    Overall, I’m giving Sister Mine a 3.5/5!

  • Ghosts in Quicksilver: Chapter Fourteen: Thief

    August 1st, 2018

    Chapter Fourteen cover

    TW: Transphobia, implied stalking, gaslighting, aggressive behaviour

    “That was disappointingly quick,” they purred, folding their hands under their chin. “What’s the point of being a shapeshifter if you keep catching on?”

    “Try investing in acting lessons.” The cold paranoia was creeping up my spine again. At least this time I knew. And they knew I knew. No more mind games.

    Of course, maybe I was speaking too soon.

    “We’ve met before. Haven’t we?” I asked quietly, trying to dislodge the feeling from my back. It was more than just paranoia. It was that feeling of having forgotten something.

    A spark of excitement appeared in the false Nathan’s green eyes. “You remember?”

    “Yeah.” I paused. “You were out on LeBreton. Right? You’re Kiera, or at least that’s what Avery called you.”

    The spark vanished, and their eyes went flat. “Yes, that’s me.”

    “That’s how you disappeared on me.” I chewed on my pen. “So can you turn into anything?”

    “I’m not here to be interviewed. Although it’s entertaining how utterly clueless you are about yourself.”

    “I wasn’t asking about myself.”

    “It’s all part of the same thing.”

    “How?”

    “I already said I wasn’t-”

    “Nobody will give me a damn straight answer,” I snapped. “And this is twice now you’ve cornered me with somebody else’s face.”

    Kiera frowned, then chuckled. “Fine. What have you gotten?”

    “Four core elements, three celestial elements. Seven total.”

    “And you know what I am.”

    “A Mercury.” I couldn’t help a jibe. “I Googled it. Apparently mercury’s poisonous.”

    She stuck her tongue out at me – or Nathan’s tongue, I supposed. “In large doses. Anyway, you and I are both celestial elementals.”

    “Big words.”

    “It means we’re special.” That grin came back. I didn’t trust it. I didn’t trust her.

    I debated asking her for more. But –

    “Where’s Nathan?”

    Her smile dropped. “Oh, boo. We’re talking big questions of identity, and you’re worried about some dumb boy?”

    “Where is he?”

    “I gave him a bonk on the head. He’s in the bathroom. He’ll be fine.”

    “A bonk on the head,” I repeated. “You know anything that knocks somebody out is a minor concussion, right?”

    “Oh, whatever. He’s not even an elemental.”

    I forced myself not to react. This was one of the few moments where even I knew that punching wouldn’t solve anything. It would be really damn satisfying, though.

    “So are there a lot of you shapeshifters around?” I asked as casually as I could manage. I doubted it, somehow – or at least that I’d somehow attracted two shapeshifters.

    “There’s a few, but we’re a rare breed compared to the rest of you.”

    “So you’re the one paying me.”

    “Yes. Why?”

    “No reason. Just making sure I’m not mixing up my tricksters.”

    Kiera snickered. “I probably should spend more time with you with my real face. It is the one you saw first, though.”

    “Tall, black hair?”

    “That’s the one. Do you like it?”

    “Jury’s out.” I didn’t like the way she was looking at me. Actually, I didn’t like anything about her. I didn’t like the way she was leaning across the table, glittering eyes fixed on mine. I didn’t like what she had done to Nathan, even if I could trust that the poor kid was alive. I didn’t like the casual way she stole identities.

    More than anything else, I didn’t like the feeling that I was missing something. Something important. Something that I was supposed to know.

    “On the topic of the case,” she said lightly, “any luck?”

    “On figuring out who killed him? Nah. I’m chasing some leads, but nothing so far.”

    “Maybe I can help-” She reached for the pad of paper, and I slid it off the table and into my pocket.

    “I don’t think so.”

    “I’m your employer.”

    “I have my own methods. And I work alone.”

    “God, you’re a stick in the mud these days.”

    These days.

    I pressed my lips together and tried not to say anything. The nachos Nathan and I had ordered showed up, and Kiera rubbed her hands together, pulling one of them up. “What are these.”

    “…Nachos?”

    “Hum. They look good.”

    I pulled out Will’s phone, keeping it under the table so Kiera couldn’t guess it wasn’t mine. Thank god Will had a data plan. A quick google search gave me the address of the place we were at – 1009 Wellington Street West – and then I flipped over to the empty messenger app. Whoever Ophis was, if they had to do with Will, they wanted me for themselves.

    WILLOW: 1009 wellington west

    WILLOW: trouble

    A moment later, the reply came.

    OPHIS: Thief.

    Fuck. And no word on whether or not I was even getting a bailout.

    I glanced around the restaurant. Fairly quiet, even for a Tuesday. I could just let Kiera say her piece, and hope she would leave eventually. I could hope that Nathan was just unconscious or even that he was in on it and just chilling in a stall.

    “I gotta pee.”

    “Uh huh. Don’t fall in.” She flashed me a dazzling smile which told me that if I took too long, she was going to come check on me. I knew her kind of person. I’d had enough of them as “concerned” foster parents.

    The bathroom hallway was around the corner, and I glanced at the door to the women’s, inching the door open to look inside. Multi-stall, which was frustrating, but workable. Then I took the extra few steps down the hallway and marched into the men’s washroom.

    Nathan lay unconscious against the wall, another man crouched over him. “H-hey, you can’t-”

    “Save it. He’s my brother,” I lied easily. “Is he okay?”

    “I’m not sure, I just came in here.” The guy reached for Nathan’s wrist. “Uh, he’s got a MedAlert bracelet – should I call an ambulance?”

    I hesitated, then grabbed for the bracelet. Never mind that I was supposed to be his sister – I had to know. Celiac’s Disease. I fumbled with my memory. A bump on the head shouldn’t give him any trouble – assuming Kiera had told the truth. But if he had a concussion…

    Avery had better show up. Whatever was going on, I didn’t want to stick an innocent bystander with an ambulance bill he might not be able to pay – and that I certainly couldn’t pay for him. I doubted Kiera was going to cover it.

    “I got it from here.” I flashed the guy a smile. “Don’t worry.”

    He didn’t look convinced, but strangers didn’t have to care about strangers. He’d done his good deed for the day.

    I picked up Nathan with a huff, secretly glad he was thin as a rake. I could feel his ribs through his shirt. “God. Sorry,” I murmured to him, too quiet to be heard by anybody else – and he was out like a light. “I’ll keep you more out of the way next time.”

    I made it to the door, pressed the auto-open and thanked the Accessibility for Ontarians with Disabilities Act under my haggard breath –

    – and came face to face with Kiera again, drumming her fingers against the wall next to the door and black hair draped into her eyes. Her proper face, this time.

    “And here I thought you’d be using the girl’s bathroom.”

    I hated her voice. I hated how she talked. And I hated, hated, hated that she acted like we were old friends, that she could make little quips like that and they’d be funny. Like I hadn’t gotten called dyke and lez and butch and man-hands for years.

    The man behind me hid in the stall, and Kiera didn’t seem to recognize it, but I heard the click of a camera shutter. Idiot. He’d taken a picture of Kiera instead of calling the cops. The good news was, he would only get the backs of my and Nathan’s heads.

    I edged out of the bathroom, but she still blocked the way back out to the restaurant. My jacket. My jacket – with my phone, my knife, my pad – was still out in the restaurant.

    I had Will’s phone. Fat lot of good that’d do me.

    Kiera took another step towards me, looming over me in a way that I really, really didn’t appreciate. “I gave you money. That means you report to me.” Any semblance of friendliness was gone, suddenly, as she let the heavy bathroom door slam closed. “Gurjas had somebody with him. A girl. Maybe your age, a bit younger. Where did she go?”

    The girl.

    Fuck.

    “Look, I don’t know if this is gang business or drug business or something else way, way out of my league but you can have your money back-”

    Kiera laughed. “I don’t think so. We both know you can’t afford that.”

    Dammit, she was right. I didn’t want her to be right. I could tell myself I preferred being homeless to whatever this was, but it was – it was an impossible situation.

    I remembered, out of nowhere, what Avery had said about thinking loudly. Time to try it.

    PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME – I tried to remember the address as well. I got close enough, and an image of the storefront.

    Kiera took another step forward, and I inched backwards, and added for good measure, Will I am sorry about the phone thing! I do not want to die for it!

    I mean, it was worth a shot. Why had nobody given me useful information, like the range on this mind reading thing?

    Hold your damn horses, I’m on my way.

    Oh thank god.

    A moment later, and infinitely sooner than I expected, Avery appeared in the hallway behind Kiera. …You couldn’t say it was Kiera?

    I didn’t know she was a PROBLEM!

    Kiera sighed and glanced over her shoulder. “Really? Already? Jamal and I were just chatting.”

    Jamal – run. She’s after you. Nathan will be fine.

    I didn’t need to be told twice. I turned tail and fled – through the hallway, through the ‘employees-only’ door and as far, far away from Kiera as I could manage.

    <– Chapter Thirteen                                                                                  Chapter Fifteen –>

  • Review: Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo

    July 15th, 2018

    Well, I’m finished, and that was a hell of a ride. Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo is a dark-fantasy heist novel, character-driven and full of moments of joy, sadness and pain. It’s one of the best books I’ve read in a while, especially in terms of pure enjoyability.

    The standout character for me has to be Kaz Brekker, the leader of the six thieves and criminals that set out to rob one of the most highly guarded Courts in the world. At first glance, Kaz is the kind of character you expect to find in Dishonored, or perhaps Gangs of New York. He’s unscrupulous, manipulative and impossibly clever. However, Bardugo strips away his outer layers and his trauma with an astonishing grace, slowly inviting the reader deeper into his psyche. He’s also one of the few characters I can name with a cane and a physical disability in addition to PTSD that makes him touch-averse. Even better, both of these things are integral to the plot in such a way that they can’t be removed without sacrificing a massive chunk of the book’s arcs.

    Of special mention is Inej Ghafa, reasonably defined as the book’s deuteragonist. As Brekker’s faithful Wraith, she’s religious, a survivor of sex trafficking and quietly intense. She’s also a woman of colour and coded as Roma, which is a wonderful surprise in a genre that still falls prey to idealized or negative stereotypes of “g*psy life”.

    However, the book isn’t without flaws; the ages of the protagonists seem almost randomly decided, with Kaz and Jesper in particular coming across as 25-30 rather than 17. The book also rarely refers to them as teenagers, reinforcing the idea that these characters are much older than the book attempts to label them.

    Once I’m able to, I’ll be getting my hands on a copy of Crooked Kingdom! And as the Dregs say – no mourners, no funerals.

    But seriously, if she kills anybody, I will cry.

←Previous Page
1 … 55 56 57 58 59 … 62
Next Page→

Start a Blog at WordPress.com.

 

Loading Comments...
 

    • Subscribe Subscribed
      • Elliott Dunstan
      • Join 166 other subscribers
      • Already have a WordPress.com account? Log in now.
      • Elliott Dunstan
      • Subscribe Subscribed
      • Sign up
      • Log in
      • Report this content
      • View site in Reader
      • Manage subscriptions
      • Collapse this bar